Saya stress (mungkinkah kerana Esah??)

The boss meaning SV tersayang wants me to attend a conference somewhere kat eropah sinun, lat beberapa minggu sebelum another conference i plan to attend (dan berfoya2). Jugak di eropah sinun and negara jiran to the one he wants me to go. Aiyo....thing is, since bff i akan mengikuti i utk berfoya2, tak boleh la pulak i nak seret dia to both places..i pun cam culas je since perbelanjaannya idakle akan ditanggung sepenuhnya for both conferences, nampak gaya for the rest of the year, CikKiah akan pokai. That doesn't worry me as much as the fact that i have to travel alone (ke tempat yang jantan2nya boleh tahan gak miangnya melalui pengalaman i yg lepas -sib baik hensem2) and i so don't like flying! Rasa kecut perut, nak muntah, angin, segalanya ada..tak taulah kot dah 'mature-mature' camni yg rasa begitu lately (or the fact that sejak dua menjak ni asik naik penerbangan Asia tu je..haha)

I had been getting these headaches kat belakang tengkuk i. It was pretty annoying since PCM pun dah tak jalan dah, so i hauled myself to the doctor's. The good, bald but sexy doctor took my BP and said, Puan, saya risau tengok BP puan ni, 150/100. Then he went on about how i should learn to manage stress, to not makan after maghrib (subtly saying aku ni obese la ni) etc. and to come back one week later for review. I terus start takde napsu makan that very night...thing is, that afternoon i had to present my research to the committee and obviously days before i had been pretty stressed out about it (ditambahkan with lit rv yg due in next week tapi sepatah haram pun takde on paper). On the way back, i was caught in the traffic jam yg sejam tak bergerak..i think that pretty much contributed to my high BP. But i was relieved to find out about it..even though he didn't think that the BP was that high enough to contribute to my headaches. Terus keesokan harinya i menyarung my trainers and did 2 exhausting, torturing laps around the tasik dekat rumah - the last time i jogged must have been during orientation sebelum fly ke UK..hahaha. (since cuti sekolah bulan Dec until now asik hujan je, i have not been to the pool).

The next day while i was lying in bed, i noticed a lump as big as a marble at the back of my left hand in line with my thumb. Picit2 tak sakit pun, it was kind of hard, fibrouslike and fixed. Aiyo...tinggal lagi 2 jemaat ke i ni? Awat i tak pernah perasan pun benda ni sebelum ni? Aiseyman...for someone who works using her hands, i should have had them insured, apasal la tak nah terpikir sebelum ni, thought i. Oh mannnn! My body is really falling apart! I showed MG my hand, without telling him what to look at, and dia tanya, apasal, jam baru ke? I said, that's why you build houses and not a doctor..ni ha benjol sebesar guli ni. He looked at it 2 secs and resumed watching tv. Cuba le kalau the said lump kat tangan bini kawan dia, mesti dia excited and simpati sangat2..(statement ni ada berkenaan dgn cerita lump kat bonbon isteri kawan dia...kome trackback la sendiri ye..malas teman nak link kan). Thank god, hubby of a friend is a tulang expert and he did a consultation melalui tepon and he assured me that it is nothing to worry about - some ganglion thing. Worse come to worse pun can walk in to his clinic and have it removed..bertambah lagila benda2 yg nak kena buat for year 2011 ni selain dari check jantung, pap smear and mammogram..

I thought i needed cheering up..something that didn't cost too much since every penny kena simpan utk berfoya2 pertengahan tahun nanti kan..so i went to have a haircut..i wanted to have a fringe. I used to have one. I was also inspired by this lady at work who had a thick mop of curly hair in all its glory..hey! My hair was like that too before i had all sorts of things done to it. Why did i ever have it straightened - i couldn't remember why. In a month's time i may need to have it retouched but i silently vowed to have my glorified curls back (ala2 JRoberts in Pretty Woman said MG- masa baru2 kahwin dulu la..which he claimed masa tu mata dia juling). So the hairdresser gave me a fringe that day. For 24 hours before i washed my hair, i rasa ghope i cam ala2 MichellePfeiffer dlm OneFineDay...this time round i didn't ask MG what he thought of my hair because when i had it recoloured and rehiglighted a month ago, he thought that rambut i cam kaler Ugi aka Jangan Pandang Belakang. His exact words were, itula! Tidur lagi selalu dekat Ugi. Perghh! Anyway, lepas cuci, i suddenly remembered why i had the rebonding - my fringe looked like as if i had a handful of Maggimee on top of my head. Inspiring it was not!

OK got to go. Kepada bekas kawan i tu yang dah jejak kaki di tanah malaya tetapi M.I.A di love nestnya, pulangkan! Pulangkan hakku!! (kalau tak paham, cekelatku ittew ye)