I'm in a less than pleasant mood today..i wouldn't say 'bad mood' because tak sampai ke tahap tu lagi and i jarang bad mood. But i have been irrational..could it be because of:
1.The medication i'm taking??? No Esah, ni bukan set2 mind altering drugs punya ok..I have had this chesty cough for over a week dah. My inhaler dah tak jalan..now ni ventolin tabs pun dah makan macam kacang putih. I know i have to be on steroids, and me so malas nak pi jumpa badan bertauliah tu nak mintak diprescribe the super drug tu. The pharmacist kat bawah tak de...the ventolin tabs are making me experience this tremors. Tapi causing mood swings?? Tak tau la kan..and no, i bukan tengah pms.
2. This morning i had a client whom i was seeing for the very first time. Apak dia langsung tak hormat kat i. He walked in while he was talking on his handphone. I had to wait about 2 mins before he ended his conversation. Pas tu he could dictate to me what he thought i should do to his son..amboi amboi! Who's the expert kan kan?? Not to mention that he was 30mins late. My first client pulak was 1 hour late and takde nak apologise langsung. Arrgghhhhh!!!
3. Siti my maid/nanny mintak nak berlibur jumpa abang dia yg baru pulang dari desa..ingatkan nak keluar pagi and balik petang. Just now the brother called me and he was under the impression that she could go overnight. Mana bisaaaa! I have a seminar on Sunday, so no can do. Lagipun, she's with us utk 2 bulan lebih je. Raya hari tu dah cuti 3 hari. Nov 20th ni nak berenti dah and yet we still decide to pay her full 3months. Gaji sebulan RM600 kau..bukannya sikit. So i have to put my foot down here..solely for the fact that i have to attend the seminar kalau tak i mungkin crumble and say, iyolah Siti. But pissed off jugak lah i.
4. This i'm really being irrational. Macam saja je nak cari gaduh...next weekend my P.I.L nak buat kenduri aqiqah for my 2 kids. Ada la we all chip in sini sikit sana sikit but mostly their contribution. MIL mintak MG buatkan kad jemputan (don't play2!). I told MG tak yah wat mahal2 because org buang je pun. MG kata beli kertas je, print sendiri. I said OK but don't put my title OK, nanti kena bantai gelak ngan kengkawan i (yg masing2 bertitle sama). Tadi MG called tanya brapa kad i nak because yg had i takde title, yg lain 'mungkin' ada. I said la..what the..I said tak yah la...And he said, oooo..kalau seselalu tu i pakai title boleh lak. I kata selain dari urusan kerja mana ada i pakai..urusan bank and tah hapa2 lagi i'm always just a plain Mrs. Dia cakap kalau my MIL nak gak camna? I kata 'riak'...ish! It doesn't have to get to that. I'm in plain foul mood plus i have this thing about using my title for non-work related stuff.
5. MG baru cakap tadi malam ni dia ada dinner..i said laa..awat bagitau lambat?? Tonight is always pasar malam night i.e. no cooking. He said memula tak nak pergi pas tu boss dah bising2.
Saja i gatal2 tanya, spouses invited sama ke?? He said nooo...so i said, you've been with that company for 1 year and not once have i (or other spouses or kut2 i kena kelentong ke?? He wouldn't dare!) been invited out. Teruk sangat ke i ni yg tak boleh dipresent kan langsung to 'the firm?' (kalau ikut cakap mak i, kita ni pi bawak stesen bas boleh, airport boleh..). I am offended! Hummphh!! So, they think i'm not good enough ye??? Just wait la satu hari nanti when the bosses may need my professional opinion atau sesapa within my 'firm'...masa tu baru tau langit tinggi rendah..(am i being irrational?????)
6. An old friend YMed me..kawan tu is living an expat life, gaji berkoyan2...Tak tau la kalau dia nak brag. Dia cakap baru2 ni balik Msia duit habis lebih 30K. Tu tak termasuk ole2 yg dibeli utk balik ke Msia..i cakap u dari dulu memang extravagant. Dia kata good quality stuff = mahal2 ones. I said not necessary...and dia boleh cakap that for e.g. she'd rather spend 100k on a sentra* than 60k on a Waja*. Mak tuan! Tak ke Cik Kiah pembawak kereta nasional terunggul ni rasa cam nak mencarut je *&^%$%^&*!!! Pas tu sibuk nak bercerita next year nak masukkan anak (yg tinggal kat mesia) dia ke kindy international and pas tu std 1 international school gak..i kata bagusla...Tapi ni la...setipa kali berhubungan ngan Cik Kiah mesti nak bagitau prices of stuff, anak punya achivement, namanya ada appear kat mana2 ke....i know i should not get riled up about these things...mungkin sebab dia cerita kat i pasal dia nak i envy kehidupannya yg bergolek with moolah..but nanti kang tiba satu petang yg hening dapat le Cik Kiah ym atau email dari dia mengatakan how she envies my life yg semua anak, kucing, laki, bini under one roof and tak macam dia yg sorang terdampar sana, sorang terdampar sini...in the meantime, Cik Kiah kena je la menghumour kawan Cik Kiah yg sakit mental tu kan..
Waaa! 6 aetilogical factors..any one of those memang menyakitkan kepala buat masa ini.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Reminiscing
I was on MC (again!) yesterday. Kali ni kena flu pulak. Really la! Nampak sangat dah tuanya..sikit2 sakit, sikit2 demam. Little D yg bawak this flu bug back from the nursery OK je, boleh melompat kat playground lagi. And there i was yesterday terbaring kat rumah and every part of my body ached. And....ada orang tu kan...('asymmetrical faced chipmunk') sampai hati balik ke L0ndon nun tak bercalling2 dgn kita dulu! Btw, Esah Ju-On really tormented me and suruh i masak.Dahla i ni tak reti masak besar2an kecuali nasi lemak itupun mentah but sib baik dapat diselamatkan within the time the rombongan makcik2 took to sampai my place. Tapi sorry la, ayam tu my maid goreng terlebih garingnya so macam makan tali raffia kena kunyah lebih 40kali. Next year can come again to my place but i order nasi beriani je la ye..tak berani i nak undertake such a HUGE project again..
While i was watching daytime tv yesterday, sempat la tengok entah apa program kat astro ria pasal this ball for debutantes. Aiyo!! So pretentious la these Malaysians! But fair enough, amma appa are loaded and bila lagi nak parade in ball gowns and berimaginasi diri berada di Vienna kan?
When i was in the upper 6th form doing my A-Levels kat negera benggali putih tu, we all had to take up a crash course in ballroom dancing. Why i call it crash course because lagi 2 bulan nak attend this ball baru la kelas tu dimulakan..and i tell you, it was compulsory, 2 or 3X /week. Every year the school would organise this ball...satu sebelum Christmas break and another one during summer term.
There were 2 other Msians during that year, one boy, one girl. Of course sebagai pompuan yg paling we all paranoid sekali was kalau kita org takde partner nak menari masa kat class tu. L being the only boy had to be fair and divide his time fairly kat we all dua org. If it's not your turn, pandai2 lah ko nak pi grab sesapa. With me memang i akan grab mana2 jantan yg dalam my maths class ke, bio class ke...janji sesapa yg sanggup jadi pak sanggup. But for us yg vertically challenged ni, it turned out not to be too bad sebabnya kalau jantan yg ada masalah yg sama and susah nak dapat minah saleh yg pendek dari diaorg, memang sasaran dia org ni minah2 asians. But i remembered during the first ever class, i main punya panik gila bila the teacher said, OK, grab your partner. I was soooo worried of being left without a partner that i quickly grabbed the first guy yg lalu depan i, literally grabbed! I have not seen him before, tak tau pun kewujudannya but desperate punya pasal kan.. I stuck to him like a barnacle, memang muka mamat tu sampai sekarang i ingat bagaimana terkejut badaknya dia.
We were taught the waltz, quick step and satu lagi tak ingat dah. I was born with two left feet OK..ajar la banyak mana kelas, i would never get it right. That's one reason why i would never take up aerobic classes..yg dancing tu baru kaki je, aerobic campur tangan sekali, sudah! Coordination semua berterabur.
After attending 4-5 classes, i perasan yg partner i maintain ngan sorang from my Maths class ni. Bila the teacher said, 'find a partner..' and mesti dia akan cari i punya..and of course la, kalau org dah cari takkan ko nak lari pulak kan....
OK cerita kena bersambung di lain masa...hehe. Nak balik, sian Baby X demam kat rumah.
P/S Utk org yg dah balik ke negara benggali putih itu, selepas makan, tidur, berak dan sewaktu dgnnya, sila hapdate ye.
While i was watching daytime tv yesterday, sempat la tengok entah apa program kat astro ria pasal this ball for debutantes. Aiyo!! So pretentious la these Malaysians! But fair enough, amma appa are loaded and bila lagi nak parade in ball gowns and berimaginasi diri berada di Vienna kan?
When i was in the upper 6th form doing my A-Levels kat negera benggali putih tu, we all had to take up a crash course in ballroom dancing. Why i call it crash course because lagi 2 bulan nak attend this ball baru la kelas tu dimulakan..and i tell you, it was compulsory, 2 or 3X /week. Every year the school would organise this ball...satu sebelum Christmas break and another one during summer term.
There were 2 other Msians during that year, one boy, one girl. Of course sebagai pompuan yg paling we all paranoid sekali was kalau kita org takde partner nak menari masa kat class tu. L being the only boy had to be fair and divide his time fairly kat we all dua org. If it's not your turn, pandai2 lah ko nak pi grab sesapa. With me memang i akan grab mana2 jantan yg dalam my maths class ke, bio class ke...janji sesapa yg sanggup jadi pak sanggup. But for us yg vertically challenged ni, it turned out not to be too bad sebabnya kalau jantan yg ada masalah yg sama and susah nak dapat minah saleh yg pendek dari diaorg, memang sasaran dia org ni minah2 asians. But i remembered during the first ever class, i main punya panik gila bila the teacher said, OK, grab your partner. I was soooo worried of being left without a partner that i quickly grabbed the first guy yg lalu depan i, literally grabbed! I have not seen him before, tak tau pun kewujudannya but desperate punya pasal kan.. I stuck to him like a barnacle, memang muka mamat tu sampai sekarang i ingat bagaimana terkejut badaknya dia.
We were taught the waltz, quick step and satu lagi tak ingat dah. I was born with two left feet OK..ajar la banyak mana kelas, i would never get it right. That's one reason why i would never take up aerobic classes..yg dancing tu baru kaki je, aerobic campur tangan sekali, sudah! Coordination semua berterabur.
After attending 4-5 classes, i perasan yg partner i maintain ngan sorang from my Maths class ni. Bila the teacher said, 'find a partner..' and mesti dia akan cari i punya..and of course la, kalau org dah cari takkan ko nak lari pulak kan....
OK cerita kena bersambung di lain masa...hehe. Nak balik, sian Baby X demam kat rumah.
P/S Utk org yg dah balik ke negara benggali putih itu, selepas makan, tidur, berak dan sewaktu dgnnya, sila hapdate ye.
Friday, October 17, 2008
Marital problem
Yesterday, i had 5 miscalls from my desperate hoswipe cousin's husband. Masa tu i was at my workplace B. Awal2 pagi dah call i. Masa tu i fikir ni mesti nak mintak my professional opinion. When finally i got to speak to him, it was not my professional views that he sought but nak mintak jadi marriage counsillor (how do you spell this word?) Aiyo kadawale! You must understand that when this guy got married my cousin, i was in std. 2..kecik lagi...bila diaorg dtg bertandang ke rumah i, i siap boleh dok atas riba dia lagi. He's well mannered, soft spoken, loaded, romantic and apa2 lagilah..pendek kata dia tu idola kitaorglah kan. But now i'm married with a family of my own...i am not that naive little girl anymore. I pun tau marriage is not a bed of roses. One may be a good friend, son, in law etc. but doesn't mean he is a good husband. Tapi ni terpulang gak kat apa criteria yg wife nak kan??
So abang N ni mintak my opinion or kalau boleh tolong cecakap dgn my cousin tu apa yg boleh buatkan dia happy. Pasal he said that he is at his wits end. Dia kata baru2 ni adalah masalah anak2 sikit and dia kata my cousin tu tak suka the way he handled the problem. And satu lagi he's worried that all these may be taking a toll on her health. Dia kata makcik tu je yg perasan kononnya anak2 tak appreciate dia. Dia kata since she doesn't want to communicate with him anymore, dia suruh i pujuk makcik tu gi jumpa counselor (damn how do u spell this word? Hey you counselor of org sakit mental, tell me the right spelling). I was asked to keep our conversation confidential.
So just now i talked to my cousin nak tau apakah yg dah berlaku semenjak aku tak dtg bertandang. Basically, her son has got himself into a lot of debts yg berpuluh ribu sebabnya anak ni gila computer and electronic gadgets. Apa yg terbaru di pasaran semua nak belilah. I pernah masuk bilik dia, mekbook air ada, vayo yg paling canggih ada and handphone tak usah cakap lah, ada 2, 3. He has gotten himself into trouble camni before but appa very generous tolong langsaikan hutang with not even telinga kena jentik. Kali ni loyar pun dah hantar surat, bank nak istihar muflis. Sekali lagi appa nak langsaikan hutang anak. Pas tu after all that, si anak ada hati lagi nak pi makan angin ngan gefren and ngenden (nak nak) sponsor appa. Tapi amma cakap apasal appa nak manjakan budak sangat. Appa cakap depan2 budak tak sedar diri tu, amma why you nak masuk campur. Let me handle it. Lagipun awak dok rumah je, awak tak tau apa2. Bila dah tengok appa pun boleh cakap itu macam dgn amma, anakku sazali ni boleh cakap, amma! You tak sedar diri. Pompuan materialistik. Sebab amma materialistiklah i bagi amma duit 200 tiap2 bulan (yg amma tak spend pun tapi tolong simpankan utk anak). Amma tak sedar diri ke yg amma bertuah dapat kawin ngan appa??!
Amma tersentak dgn jawapan anak si Tenggang itu dan jugak ngan lakinya yg tak buat apa2 bila anak cakap camtu. Jangankan kata nak dusyum si anak kan...So i asked makcik tu, what did you do. She said she was so terkejut, terjelepuk and nangis raung. I menggeletar dengarnya...i had this vision of myself if that were to happen to me, i'd probably be running to the kitchen and bawak pisau chopper potong daging tu or the least batang kayu mop and hempuk dua2 mamat yg kurang diajar oleh pak mak mereka dulu supaya hormatkan pompuan/mak/isteri. OK, itu satu episode.
My cousin has been a housewipe all her married life. Hubby tak bagi kerja. Now ni umur dah nak dekat 50, badan dah sakit2 but hubby tak bagi pakai maid because tak percayakan org asing ada kat dlm rumah. Tapi expect wife to basuh bontot dia and anak2 kalau boleh. (which explains napa amma selalu sakit2..tekanan perasaan dan badan). Anak2 memang tak appreciate mak..dah tua bangka and dok rumah lain (walaupun rumah appanya jugak dan tak bayar sewa or bill apa2), masih campakkan kain baju utk mak masukkan dlm mesen, jemur, lipat, seterika. Amma komplen kat appa, i penatlah dah. Appa can say, you kan dok rumah, apalagi kerja you buat?? Takkan nak berkira ngan anak!
I really tak tau camna nak tackle benda ni...at the beginning i cam termakan dgn cakap2 cara lembut si jantan appa tu but bila dengar cite amma, i rasa cam nak cakap ngan appa, oi! Kau tu rugi je jadi jantan terpelajar tapi ko treat wife ko tak lebih cam cavemen treat gundik diaorg. Ko expect dgn wang ringgit ko, bini ko buat kerja rumah, cuci berak anak2 ko semua (yg dah besar panjang and tak reti2 dok rumah lain) and bila ko balik ever ready to kangkang..god, vulgarnya i!
Last2 i cakap kat amma yg dah nak tinggalkan lakinya, apa kata pi kaunseling. Dia kata dulu pernah pergi and lakinya never attended the sessions. Cis!
Tapi kita kena la bersikap professional kan...takkan nak pi cakap pulak kat appa, ces ko jantan tak sedar diri etc. etc. I think i kena cool down dulu and then call him up and suruh dia pi book sesi kaunseling. I tak leh le nak tak sides kan? Nanti kang i yg ter malu2 nak bertandang rumah dia..
So abang N ni mintak my opinion or kalau boleh tolong cecakap dgn my cousin tu apa yg boleh buatkan dia happy. Pasal he said that he is at his wits end. Dia kata baru2 ni adalah masalah anak2 sikit and dia kata my cousin tu tak suka the way he handled the problem. And satu lagi he's worried that all these may be taking a toll on her health. Dia kata makcik tu je yg perasan kononnya anak2 tak appreciate dia. Dia kata since she doesn't want to communicate with him anymore, dia suruh i pujuk makcik tu gi jumpa counselor (damn how do u spell this word? Hey you counselor of org sakit mental, tell me the right spelling). I was asked to keep our conversation confidential.
So just now i talked to my cousin nak tau apakah yg dah berlaku semenjak aku tak dtg bertandang. Basically, her son has got himself into a lot of debts yg berpuluh ribu sebabnya anak ni gila computer and electronic gadgets. Apa yg terbaru di pasaran semua nak belilah. I pernah masuk bilik dia, mekbook air ada, vayo yg paling canggih ada and handphone tak usah cakap lah, ada 2, 3. He has gotten himself into trouble camni before but appa very generous tolong langsaikan hutang with not even telinga kena jentik. Kali ni loyar pun dah hantar surat, bank nak istihar muflis. Sekali lagi appa nak langsaikan hutang anak. Pas tu after all that, si anak ada hati lagi nak pi makan angin ngan gefren and ngenden (nak nak) sponsor appa. Tapi amma cakap apasal appa nak manjakan budak sangat. Appa cakap depan2 budak tak sedar diri tu, amma why you nak masuk campur. Let me handle it. Lagipun awak dok rumah je, awak tak tau apa2. Bila dah tengok appa pun boleh cakap itu macam dgn amma, anakku sazali ni boleh cakap, amma! You tak sedar diri. Pompuan materialistik. Sebab amma materialistiklah i bagi amma duit 200 tiap2 bulan (yg amma tak spend pun tapi tolong simpankan utk anak). Amma tak sedar diri ke yg amma bertuah dapat kawin ngan appa??!
Amma tersentak dgn jawapan anak si Tenggang itu dan jugak ngan lakinya yg tak buat apa2 bila anak cakap camtu. Jangankan kata nak dusyum si anak kan...So i asked makcik tu, what did you do. She said she was so terkejut, terjelepuk and nangis raung. I menggeletar dengarnya...i had this vision of myself if that were to happen to me, i'd probably be running to the kitchen and bawak pisau chopper potong daging tu or the least batang kayu mop and hempuk dua2 mamat yg kurang diajar oleh pak mak mereka dulu supaya hormatkan pompuan/mak/isteri. OK, itu satu episode.
My cousin has been a housewipe all her married life. Hubby tak bagi kerja. Now ni umur dah nak dekat 50, badan dah sakit2 but hubby tak bagi pakai maid because tak percayakan org asing ada kat dlm rumah. Tapi expect wife to basuh bontot dia and anak2 kalau boleh. (which explains napa amma selalu sakit2..tekanan perasaan dan badan). Anak2 memang tak appreciate mak..dah tua bangka and dok rumah lain (walaupun rumah appanya jugak dan tak bayar sewa or bill apa2), masih campakkan kain baju utk mak masukkan dlm mesen, jemur, lipat, seterika. Amma komplen kat appa, i penatlah dah. Appa can say, you kan dok rumah, apalagi kerja you buat?? Takkan nak berkira ngan anak!
I really tak tau camna nak tackle benda ni...at the beginning i cam termakan dgn cakap2 cara lembut si jantan appa tu but bila dengar cite amma, i rasa cam nak cakap ngan appa, oi! Kau tu rugi je jadi jantan terpelajar tapi ko treat wife ko tak lebih cam cavemen treat gundik diaorg. Ko expect dgn wang ringgit ko, bini ko buat kerja rumah, cuci berak anak2 ko semua (yg dah besar panjang and tak reti2 dok rumah lain) and bila ko balik ever ready to kangkang..god, vulgarnya i!
Last2 i cakap kat amma yg dah nak tinggalkan lakinya, apa kata pi kaunseling. Dia kata dulu pernah pergi and lakinya never attended the sessions. Cis!
Tapi kita kena la bersikap professional kan...takkan nak pi cakap pulak kat appa, ces ko jantan tak sedar diri etc. etc. I think i kena cool down dulu and then call him up and suruh dia pi book sesi kaunseling. I tak leh le nak tak sides kan? Nanti kang i yg ter malu2 nak bertandang rumah dia..
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Mana mummy?
It has been a hectic week, hence no time for blogging (but i do blog hop). Usually i like to wind down at the end of the day at the office with writing a line or two. Have not been doing that for the last few weeks because one little girl is expecting the mummy to be the one to pick her up from the nursery. Padahalnya, nursery betul2 sebelah rumah (share satu dinding!) and the maid can always pick her up but noooo..little D dah terbawak2 dari bulan pose hari tu where i would have reached the nursery by 5.30pm, parked my car depan nursery tu, boleh nampak muka dia intai celah2 grill tu, pick her up, masuk dlm kereta, pusing seround dua then baru balik rumah. When there were times i couldn't reach home on time i.e. before cikgu dia start keluarkan buku OT (and charge RM7 after 6pm) i'd ask Siti to pick her up but Siti got pretty worried because little D would be asking every 5 secs, mana mummy? Then lepas tu akan nangis..aiya!! Like today, i reached home around 7.30pm, singgah minggah beli satay (pasal malas nak masak) plus hujan yg so lebat. The maid, little D and baby X were all in the maid's room and little D was crying, nak mummy..! Camna boleh manja sangat ni? Padahal i boleh tahan garangnya.
I spoke to a colleague today telling her that it's so difficult to get any paper work done during office hours due to the nature of my job. Normally i'd take the extra 1-2 hours after 5pm to wrap things up...kenkadang tu bawak balik ke rumah but since sekarang ni pukul 9 pun mata dah berat cam garfield's, hardly anything get done at home. But if i were to stay on at the office, a little girl will be very disappointed....her face really lights up bila tengok i yg mengambiknya dari nursery...you know, i am like her friends' mummies yg day in day out hantar dan ambik anak. I tak sampai hati...when she is all grown up, she will not remember stuff like sapa yg bayar tuition/school fees dia, put clothes on her back, or feed her etc. but i'm sure she will remember the times when her mummy picked her up from school (cam sampai sekarang i can ingat how happy i was when my mum dtg ambik i kat tadika..dia naik basikal lagi you because she couldn't drive). So, from now onwards i shall always try to reach home before 6pm (i kerja jauh therefore paling lambat by 5.15pm kena leave the office already. Unless aku perasan kaya and nak bayar RM7 OT everyday..!)
I always thought that with me work comes first. I was pretty happy that we all lambat dapat anak..but now i have fallen, apa kataorg? Hook, line and sinker with my role..it's pretty comforting to have little arms around my neck..tak kisahlah apa kata Esah yg aku ni asyik nak sogokkan anak2 aku kat org..well..mummies need to have sometime to themselves also la..
I spoke to a colleague today telling her that it's so difficult to get any paper work done during office hours due to the nature of my job. Normally i'd take the extra 1-2 hours after 5pm to wrap things up...kenkadang tu bawak balik ke rumah but since sekarang ni pukul 9 pun mata dah berat cam garfield's, hardly anything get done at home. But if i were to stay on at the office, a little girl will be very disappointed....her face really lights up bila tengok i yg mengambiknya dari nursery...you know, i am like her friends' mummies yg day in day out hantar dan ambik anak. I tak sampai hati...when she is all grown up, she will not remember stuff like sapa yg bayar tuition/school fees dia, put clothes on her back, or feed her etc. but i'm sure she will remember the times when her mummy picked her up from school (cam sampai sekarang i can ingat how happy i was when my mum dtg ambik i kat tadika..dia naik basikal lagi you because she couldn't drive). So, from now onwards i shall always try to reach home before 6pm (i kerja jauh therefore paling lambat by 5.15pm kena leave the office already. Unless aku perasan kaya and nak bayar RM7 OT everyday..!)
I always thought that with me work comes first. I was pretty happy that we all lambat dapat anak..but now i have fallen, apa kataorg? Hook, line and sinker with my role..it's pretty comforting to have little arms around my neck..tak kisahlah apa kata Esah yg aku ni asyik nak sogokkan anak2 aku kat org..well..mummies need to have sometime to themselves also la..
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Raya
I was on MC yesterday..cirit birit. The dr told me to lay off spicy and oily food for a few days. since the others at home tak kena sama, she thinks that my case ni more of angin than anything else. She asked me if i had skipped meals recently...well...the day before, i waited for nearly 2 bloody hours for my double cheeseburger to be delivered.! Kira dah masuk angin la perut tu kut...the burger arrived around 2pm and i had a session with the trainees that afternoon. Terkocoh2 makan..really la..i tension betul kalau i cannot savour my food pelan2, tasting all the goodness (ye la tu, 'a moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips'). Really..i've eaten so much over Raya..and it's not as if lepas raya i can revert back to crisps and coke je to tie me over for a week like some people kan? Habis tembam balik la aku! walaupun dr suruh pantang for a few days, ni dah buat plan nak pi ke KayLCC for lunch.
Raya was allright for me. Spent the eve and first day itself at the inlaws'. MG thought it's a good way for the kids to 'get to know' their atuk and wan. Little D tak berapa gel sgt ngan atuk n wan although selalu jumpa walaupun sekejap2 compared to atuk n opah who live in Perak. I think it's more to the fact that atuk n wan tak berapa reti nak 'childrenese' themselves kut as atuk n opah.
I think my father terlalu 'childrenese' sangat sampai bila cucu dah balik rumah masing2 he'd end up in hospital because sakit2 badan. I selalu cakap 'bapak tu manjakan sgt cucu sampaikan kalau cucu mintak kain yg dia pakai pun dia akan lucutkan'.
2nd day balik Perak after picking up the maid from her leave. Btw, the cats when left overnight on their own were all allright..plenty of food left. Hmm...i have been thinking...i'm sure they will be allright if left for 2 nights (one weekend) without the maid..although my mum did say that they'll die first because of lack of human (slaves) contact. It took us nearly 4 hours to sampai kampung. The next day tak buat apa2....MG has this habit of suka tidur bila kat kampung i. Masuk bilik, pasang aircond and leboh (kata org Perak). The thing is, i pun suka tidur, but i kat mana2 pun suka. So, end up kitaorg berdua asyik kat bilik je..i selalu cakap kat Mg, nanti org kata kita ni mengada2 perasan diri cam pengantin baru asyik nak berkepit kat bilik je..tak tau yg dua2 kaki tidur.
3rd raya..balik ke kampung aruah atuk i. I have not been back for more than 5 years..itupun for my cousin's wedding, tak lawat pun family yg lain. The reason yg i mencemar duli kali ni (bongkak betul!) because we got news that one of my cousins ada breast cancer. She's only 41 or 42. She found a lump in her left breast 4 years ago, masa tu anak dia yg kecik sekali besar2 baby X. She didn't do anything about it even though the nurse who screened her had told her to go to the hospita. The husband was sworn to secrecy, jadi adik beradik dia pun tak tau sampai baru2 ni. Apparently the breast dah keras and sakit berdenyut2. Her sister found out, hebohkan kat adik beradik lain and she was taken to the hospital. She's at stage4 now. Undergoing chemo now. My sis insisted that we go see her - blessed my sis and bro-in-law who are good at kerja2 masyarakat camni and always politically correct. If it was left to MG and I yg tak reti nak bercampur gaul (memang hampeh)...it was awkward i tell you...we have never visited her at her house, suddenly this particular raya, there we were terpacak kat rumah dia. The word 'C' was never mentioned but i'm sure she knew why we were there.
Masa nak balik and salam, i gave her a bit of sumbangan - i felt bad...it's like my way of saying sorry that i haven't made any effort to merapatkan silaturrahim previously, sorry that now i know she's ill baru nak lawat, sorry that she's got 'it'....and sorry that i may probably won't see her again and i'm sorry that she may not be able to see her children grow up and get married. Teruk ke i?? I salam, hulur duit and left...kalau i lama2 cakap mintak maap semua i know i akan menangis kat situ. (when one of my staff dulu passed away because of C, i datang ziarah and i menangis beria2 because i tak sempat jumpa dia kat hospital...padahal dia bukan dari dept i pun. That's how emotional i am..sampaikan sedara mara dia heran tengok i ingatkan i ni pun kaum kerabat diaorg).
Masa balik kampung tu, i cuba cari my grandfather's house, tapi tak jumpa! Rumahnya tepi jalan juga..how could i not find it?? Dalam hati masa tu i rasa cemas, marah, semua ada..kalau tak berjumpa tu macam segala childhood memories tu macam sia2 je. For years and years even after my grandparents have passed away (when i was doing my A-levels) and we all balik kpg to visit aunties and uncles, i could always point out where it was. But kali ni, MG pusing kereta 2,3 kali lalu pun i tak jumpa. Laaa! Rupa2nya my cousin tu cakap tanah dah kena jual and the new owner roboh the house and built a mini market.
Maybe in my next post i shall bercerita ceriti about my childhood..beraya di kampung.
Raya was allright for me. Spent the eve and first day itself at the inlaws'. MG thought it's a good way for the kids to 'get to know' their atuk and wan. Little D tak berapa gel sgt ngan atuk n wan although selalu jumpa walaupun sekejap2 compared to atuk n opah who live in Perak. I think it's more to the fact that atuk n wan tak berapa reti nak 'childrenese' themselves kut as atuk n opah.
I think my father terlalu 'childrenese' sangat sampai bila cucu dah balik rumah masing2 he'd end up in hospital because sakit2 badan. I selalu cakap 'bapak tu manjakan sgt cucu sampaikan kalau cucu mintak kain yg dia pakai pun dia akan lucutkan'.
2nd day balik Perak after picking up the maid from her leave. Btw, the cats when left overnight on their own were all allright..plenty of food left. Hmm...i have been thinking...i'm sure they will be allright if left for 2 nights (one weekend) without the maid..although my mum did say that they'll die first because of lack of human (slaves) contact. It took us nearly 4 hours to sampai kampung. The next day tak buat apa2....MG has this habit of suka tidur bila kat kampung i. Masuk bilik, pasang aircond and leboh (kata org Perak). The thing is, i pun suka tidur, but i kat mana2 pun suka. So, end up kitaorg berdua asyik kat bilik je..i selalu cakap kat Mg, nanti org kata kita ni mengada2 perasan diri cam pengantin baru asyik nak berkepit kat bilik je..tak tau yg dua2 kaki tidur.
3rd raya..balik ke kampung aruah atuk i. I have not been back for more than 5 years..itupun for my cousin's wedding, tak lawat pun family yg lain. The reason yg i mencemar duli kali ni (bongkak betul!) because we got news that one of my cousins ada breast cancer. She's only 41 or 42. She found a lump in her left breast 4 years ago, masa tu anak dia yg kecik sekali besar2 baby X. She didn't do anything about it even though the nurse who screened her had told her to go to the hospita. The husband was sworn to secrecy, jadi adik beradik dia pun tak tau sampai baru2 ni. Apparently the breast dah keras and sakit berdenyut2. Her sister found out, hebohkan kat adik beradik lain and she was taken to the hospital. She's at stage4 now. Undergoing chemo now. My sis insisted that we go see her - blessed my sis and bro-in-law who are good at kerja2 masyarakat camni and always politically correct. If it was left to MG and I yg tak reti nak bercampur gaul (memang hampeh)...it was awkward i tell you...we have never visited her at her house, suddenly this particular raya, there we were terpacak kat rumah dia. The word 'C' was never mentioned but i'm sure she knew why we were there.
Masa nak balik and salam, i gave her a bit of sumbangan - i felt bad...it's like my way of saying sorry that i haven't made any effort to merapatkan silaturrahim previously, sorry that now i know she's ill baru nak lawat, sorry that she's got 'it'....and sorry that i may probably won't see her again and i'm sorry that she may not be able to see her children grow up and get married. Teruk ke i?? I salam, hulur duit and left...kalau i lama2 cakap mintak maap semua i know i akan menangis kat situ. (when one of my staff dulu passed away because of C, i datang ziarah and i menangis beria2 because i tak sempat jumpa dia kat hospital...padahal dia bukan dari dept i pun. That's how emotional i am..sampaikan sedara mara dia heran tengok i ingatkan i ni pun kaum kerabat diaorg).
Masa balik kampung tu, i cuba cari my grandfather's house, tapi tak jumpa! Rumahnya tepi jalan juga..how could i not find it?? Dalam hati masa tu i rasa cemas, marah, semua ada..kalau tak berjumpa tu macam segala childhood memories tu macam sia2 je. For years and years even after my grandparents have passed away (when i was doing my A-levels) and we all balik kpg to visit aunties and uncles, i could always point out where it was. But kali ni, MG pusing kereta 2,3 kali lalu pun i tak jumpa. Laaa! Rupa2nya my cousin tu cakap tanah dah kena jual and the new owner roboh the house and built a mini market.
Maybe in my next post i shall bercerita ceriti about my childhood..beraya di kampung.
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