Raya

I was on MC yesterday..cirit birit. The dr told me to lay off spicy and oily food for a few days. since the others at home tak kena sama, she thinks that my case ni more of angin than anything else. She asked me if i had skipped meals recently...well...the day before, i waited for nearly 2 bloody hours for my double cheeseburger to be delivered.! Kira dah masuk angin la perut tu kut...the burger arrived around 2pm and i had a session with the trainees that afternoon. Terkocoh2 makan..really la..i tension betul kalau i cannot savour my food pelan2, tasting all the goodness (ye la tu, 'a moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips'). Really..i've eaten so much over Raya..and it's not as if lepas raya i can revert back to crisps and coke je to tie me over for a week like some people kan? Habis tembam balik la aku! walaupun dr suruh pantang for a few days, ni dah buat plan nak pi ke KayLCC for lunch.

Raya was allright for me. Spent the eve and first day itself at the inlaws'. MG thought it's a good way for the kids to 'get to know' their atuk and wan. Little D tak berapa gel sgt ngan atuk n wan although selalu jumpa walaupun sekejap2 compared to atuk n opah who live in Perak. I think it's more to the fact that atuk n wan tak berapa reti nak 'childrenese' themselves kut as atuk n opah.
I think my father terlalu 'childrenese' sangat sampai bila cucu dah balik rumah masing2 he'd end up in hospital because sakit2 badan. I selalu cakap 'bapak tu manjakan sgt cucu sampaikan kalau cucu mintak kain yg dia pakai pun dia akan lucutkan'.

2nd day balik Perak after picking up the maid from her leave. Btw, the cats when left overnight on their own were all allright..plenty of food left. Hmm...i have been thinking...i'm sure they will be allright if left for 2 nights (one weekend) without the maid..although my mum did say that they'll die first because of lack of human (slaves) contact. It took us nearly 4 hours to sampai kampung. The next day tak buat apa2....MG has this habit of suka tidur bila kat kampung i. Masuk bilik, pasang aircond and leboh (kata org Perak). The thing is, i pun suka tidur, but i kat mana2 pun suka. So, end up kitaorg berdua asyik kat bilik je..i selalu cakap kat Mg, nanti org kata kita ni mengada2 perasan diri cam pengantin baru asyik nak berkepit kat bilik je..tak tau yg dua2 kaki tidur.

3rd raya..balik ke kampung aruah atuk i. I have not been back for more than 5 years..itupun for my cousin's wedding, tak lawat pun family yg lain. The reason yg i mencemar duli kali ni (bongkak betul!) because we got news that one of my cousins ada breast cancer. She's only 41 or 42. She found a lump in her left breast 4 years ago, masa tu anak dia yg kecik sekali besar2 baby X. She didn't do anything about it even though the nurse who screened her had told her to go to the hospita. The husband was sworn to secrecy, jadi adik beradik dia pun tak tau sampai baru2 ni. Apparently the breast dah keras and sakit berdenyut2. Her sister found out, hebohkan kat adik beradik lain and she was taken to the hospital. She's at stage4 now. Undergoing chemo now. My sis insisted that we go see her - blessed my sis and bro-in-law who are good at kerja2 masyarakat camni and always politically correct. If it was left to MG and I yg tak reti nak bercampur gaul (memang hampeh)...it was awkward i tell you...we have never visited her at her house, suddenly this particular raya, there we were terpacak kat rumah dia. The word 'C' was never mentioned but i'm sure she knew why we were there.

Masa nak balik and salam, i gave her a bit of sumbangan - i felt bad...it's like my way of saying sorry that i haven't made any effort to merapatkan silaturrahim previously, sorry that now i know she's ill baru nak lawat, sorry that she's got 'it'....and sorry that i may probably won't see her again and i'm sorry that she may not be able to see her children grow up and get married. Teruk ke i?? I salam, hulur duit and left...kalau i lama2 cakap mintak maap semua i know i akan menangis kat situ. (when one of my staff dulu passed away because of C, i datang ziarah and i menangis beria2 because i tak sempat jumpa dia kat hospital...padahal dia bukan dari dept i pun. That's how emotional i am..sampaikan sedara mara dia heran tengok i ingatkan i ni pun kaum kerabat diaorg).

Masa balik kampung tu, i cuba cari my grandfather's house, tapi tak jumpa! Rumahnya tepi jalan juga..how could i not find it?? Dalam hati masa tu i rasa cemas, marah, semua ada..kalau tak berjumpa tu macam segala childhood memories tu macam sia2 je. For years and years even after my grandparents have passed away (when i was doing my A-levels) and we all balik kpg to visit aunties and uncles, i could always point out where it was. But kali ni, MG pusing kereta 2,3 kali lalu pun i tak jumpa. Laaa! Rupa2nya my cousin tu cakap tanah dah kena jual and the new owner roboh the house and built a mini market.

Maybe in my next post i shall bercerita ceriti about my childhood..beraya di kampung.