Hi uols. Thank you to EJ (nama glamer Esah Ju-On), Yaya, Desert Rose, Kapitan Lukman, Danial Ma and other well wishes. My mum is better but will she ever get better, i don't know. She was discharged from the district hospital after one week and after a few days, i brought her here to my place. Mengenangkan among my siblings i'm the one living closest to a hospital and that i have a maid, we thought that was the most suitable solution while waiting for the IJN appointment. Yesterday, i took her to another hospital (a bit further away from my house because yg dekat rumah takde cardiologist) to have her checked out because the night before she coughed non-stop and had shortness of breath. Turned out that she has retained fluids in her lungs. After echo etc. the drs think it was more of infection rather than heart failure...still, it's inconclusive.
Tadi my little boss told me, so sorry Cik Kiah, your last year's appraisal markah ada turun sikit. Dia cakap big boss kedekut pulak kali ni. I told my little boss, ye la..last year i tak productive sangat selain dpd beranak dan mencernakan cerita2 tak bermoral untuk blog i. So i understand. Tapi mulut saja nak mengata, eleh! Big boss tu bukannya apa! dengki!! dia tak dapat naik pangkat, dia nak torture org2 bawah dia...piraaa! looking at my appraisal in the last 2 years, menurun point something2 markah each year...it's a sign. Yes..it's time i have to leave.
While i was at the hospital looking after my mum, my senior colleague ni called, and i thought she wanted to ask about my mum but rupa2nya nak membawa perkhabaran...i have mentioned about her and her daughter here. Mak i yg heart attack, i pulak yg rasa cam nak cardiac arrest! My ex-siamang is getting married, again! My friend si makcik tu tersedu-sedan memberitahu i..how she got to know was through her son who works at the same company as siamang's dad. then she asked me, how come you don't know??? I said, errr.....welll....i lama tak masuk office and entah2 kad jemputannya sampai kat office. Well, uols sekalian, i have to own up now..the reason i tak tau was because i ngan siamang dah lama berpatah arang berkerat rotan. Sebabnya, sekarang i nak own up that actually this is him. Mengenangkan yg dulu i tried to matchmake siamang ngan anak dia and in a way i'm quite glad nothing came out of it because mengenangkan what a nut case he has turned out to be..kalau tak idak ke minah tu masuk mulut buaya (darat)? Antara jantung i yg dah berenti kejap, kena le pulak i memujuk makcik tu and told her that it is for the best...god has made it that way. Rasa ringan je mulut i nak cakap, trust me, nyaris anak you kawin ngan laki psycho.
I dapat tahu yg he's getting married this cuti sekolah. Am i a bit miffed that i havent been invited this time round. A tad perhaps...but kalau ajak pun, tergamak ke i pergi??? When he got married the first time round, i ngan MG berpimpin2 tangan pergi you! Of course la, nak la appear macam we all ni loving couple sangat kan! Have to show off mah! Kitaorg dok jauh dari stage where the raja sehari bersanding...and mata i yg sentiasa rabun ni nampak amboi, bukan main lagi wife dia. pilih yg kecik molek, rambut straight (my pet dengki), and senyum tak renti2. Berbulu2 hati i tapi takpa, MG i pun tak kurang machonya (ye la..masa tu we all baru kawin 7 bulan..memang dia sungguh macho then, now we dua2 hancho!). Bila time nak balik and we all pun pi la mengadap diaorg yg tengah makan masa tu and i pun bersalaman la dgn wife dia. And she gave me the sweetest (i perli je ni) and BIGGEST smile ever. Lepas tu i terus tersengih....gigi dia berterabur you allllll! YES! tuhan itu maha adil...
OK, back to the question, kalau had yg ni, dijemput pun, tergamak ke i pergi??? FYI, my dentist friend yg treat si siamang ni, pernah cakap kat i yg siamang pernah bawak minah ni pi jumpa dia. A few months ago, my dentist friend ni pernah mention yg minah ni semakin cantik sekarang..so dgn nada yg agak dengki i pun tanya, cantik? Kenapa? kurus ke? (mengenangkan taste nya yg suka org kurus ni..). Kawan i ni menjawab, no, she's not thin, not fat (cis, perlu ke dia sebut perkataan fat itu??), she's just SOLID. Apparently minah ni tengah giat bergyming lah...now we know for what la kan??? Nak bersanding lagi you all...! Of course la kawin kali ni akan lebih grand, kan siamang dah jadi expek yg kaya raya itu.
So tak sanggup la i kali ni if i tak dapat cari any physical flaw her kan? Although i know she's missing one tooth (my friend pernah cabutkan but a wisdom tooth?? Too far back for anyone to notice).
My colleague tanya i, apsal ko nak psycho lak pasal ni? Biarkan je la...lets' just hope he's going to be happy this time.
I have no answer for that. It's not as if i'm single, unhappily married (very subjective this) and that dia sekaya Bill Gates or secun Brad Pitt...
Akan tetapi, for someone yang telah menjanjikan bulan dan bintang kat you, pas tu dump you unceremoniously. Antara sebab2 mendumping yg telah diwar2kan kat org ramai ialah: i tak mau masak hari2 bila kahwin nanti, i tak nak anak straightaway, i am anal about tidiness, i am likely to put on weight dan tah hapa2 lagi. Macam bagusssss je kan? Then cam org gila talak tersua2 balik kat kita, pas tu tak jugak buat keputusan yg dia betul2 nak kat kita. And then throughout the years nak jugak memberitahu kita perihal kisah dia and bini yg tak sebulu. Regarding bini yg tak pernah buatkan air, harapkan mak dia je, bini yg milo tumpah pun kesat kuis ngan kaki je and lepas beranak all she cared about was to mintak si jantan invest besar2an beli corset tah segala benda nak get back to pre-pregnancy shape. And during all those times dia bercerita, tak sekali pun i cakap, serve you right!. Even though hati ni meletup2 nak cakap. Tapi i ni kan ada sikit ciri2 pompuan muslimah, so kata2 tu tinggal berkulat je dlm hati.
Tapi semenjak dua menjak yg dia dah mula berlagak and boleh lak menidakkan peranan i sebagai gofren yg setia suatu masa dulu, siapa tak marah kan?
So back to my colleague's suggestion that i should just wish him well...here's my answer: kalau jumpa dia, depan dia i akan cakap congratulations dan semoga berbahagia hingga ke anak cucu. tapi dalam hati, as if! He doesn't deserve it..fullstop.
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