Muhasabah diri

It's been a long week. Had a discussion with the SV sometime midweek. Of course i'd not be myself la kan prior to that...rasa macam nak makan semua orang, and sikit2 nak merajuk...all because of a man..kalau boipren kita takpe le jugakkan.

That evening i met up with some old friends. Semua kerja local area sini je (come to think of it..) but the last time i met them is probably 3 years ago except Ustazah Munah la. We went to this swanky restaurant/bar but i must say the dessert cost less than TheLoaf (sorry TunM) and tastes better pun. I've been to this place only once before so i was really looking forward to read the menu from cover to cover and spend another 10 minutes deciding on what to eat. But one of my friends ni, perangai dari sekolah dulu memang bossy, so she decided what we should have...the others semua, i tak kisah, i tak berapa lapar...so i la yg left fuming kan..kalau you tingin makan benda tu, you order la utk sorang but no, no, no, order utk semua orang. Urghhhh!!!

I ni memang pantang betul kalau orang orderkan utk i...but tak berani pulak le i nak kata tak nak. So for all 10 minutes, i must have sulked..quietly.. (can read here). So, the next day i pi balik to the same place to read the menu, order and eat, to my heart's content..hehe. All in all the evening was good....

Today i had to make several phone calls..call pejabat sini, call sana, tulis surat rasmi sana sini. I hope after 3 years ni, selain daripada dapat degree lagi satu, i pun excel dalam menulis surat dan membuat panggilan rasmi. Penting tau uols! Kat Mesia ni semua nak surat..kalau boleh nak kentut pun kena tulis surat mintak permission kat kapla.

Home front...the kids are OK..this week adalah minggu bebas dari selsema and batuk. MG's OK..sejak dua menjak naik pangkat ni, makin sibuk dia..balik rumah lambat, kat rumah cam zombie je. Kalau ada gofren pun i wouldn't know...do i care ke sebenarnya? Or ignorance is bliss. After meeting those friends, with one of them macam StepfordWife (or in my opinion she must have gone through a refresher's course in marriage) i have so much kekurangan...i don't do groceries, i don't have any skills at making pasta ke, special nescafe ke, i don't iron clothes, cuci or lipat baju, i don't even make breakfast on weekends. What i do is just sleep and terkebil2 atas katil pandang ceiling or baca buku cerita. I go out see friends at night some more...i dok lepak ngan my cousins sampai anak dah tidur baru balik and i go holiday with my girl friends. Isteri apakah aku ini?? (so sweet of UM to convince me that MG's way of showing that he cares for me is not menunjukkan 'caring'nya) If i don't come home tonight also, MG takkan sedar sampai pagi esok...

My specialty is to look after sick people..but sayangnya MG jarang sakit. Kalau dapat mc dari doktor pun selalunya dia taklah terlantar and tau2 tengahari dia dah pi menjongket (kata org perak) kat Ikea. Sebab tu when the kids fall sick, i terus masuk mode doktor, nurse, florencenightingale what have you lah..

So MG, actuallynya cupcakes yg besar2 and caramel shortbread that i brought back that night lepas i keluar ngan kengkawan is not for me to mentekedarah, but they are for you: one way of me telling you that you'd do me just fine even though i'd like you to be more like 'sotong' (bukan Abang Sam hokey). I'd rather be with you dpd jejantan yg control freak yg kalau i end up dgn any of them takkan membenarkan i buat seperti yg telah i highlightkan kat atas. (Btw also, the danishs that i brought back from my outing with my cousin pun adalah hadiah i kat you walaupun i yg makan agak banyak jugak).

May we have a long and weird marriage. Amin..