Looking for a holiday companion

Ceh...tajuk cam gempak je kan..

My BFF baru2 ni bagitau i yg dia telah menemui chenta hatinya. I asked her, how do you know? She said, pertama kali nampak muka that guy, she just knew...I said, yes, i understand, it's like the first time i set my eyes on MG, i just knew that i wanted to be with him.

Ok, sila muntah kayap uols...tengah2 malam nni bukan bermakna i dah hilang ingatan or demam seytan (sethtan)...memang betul...i knew the first time i saw MG that this is it. It was not chemistry (kalau tak cakap sangat boleh dapat chemistry ke?), or his cute face with flawless complexion (kalau i scout utk cari model iklan ye la kut)..it must just be jodoh i supposed..atau saja i ni kan suka something yg challenging..

Speaking of life's challenges..habis SPM nak masuk uni dapat degree, bila dah dapat degree cabaran nak kerja pulak, dah boring kerja ingat nak buat masters supaya jadi pandai sikit, then bila dah boring buat masters, oii takde sapa ke yg nak kahwin dgn i? Bila berboyfriend2 tu how i wish we can just stay at that (kalau org islam boleh la kan)...persistently gaduh, make up, gaduh, makeup ada org nak pujuk, ada org nak jealous semua..High sentiasa (minta maaf ye, scene2 di atas takde kena mengena dgn i and MG. Kitaorg tak sempat gaduh dah kena kahwin, so bila gaduh lepas kahwin, tak siapa nak pujuk because dah dapat, OK?!). Then bila dah kawin lama sikit, rasa tak challenging lagi, ok, nak anak la pulak..bila dapat anak and lepas tu kira boleh manage (and hidup pun agak boring jugak), okla, nak buat phd pulak lah. Nak cakap makcik menyesal dah terlambat lah pulak..probably i should just learn my lesson and pas ni, belajar buat kek je lah kan...sambil2 plan holiday utk bawak anak2...(rasa2 boleh sustain ke hobi cenggini sampai i mati agaknya?)

I tak pernah dapat bunga sekontena cam si Norak tu, but i think with marriage, if we don't have any expectations from our spouse, we're like less likely to get chom (you know like kes birthday cake i yg i tak dapat on the day itself...tengok tu, ngungkit!)...and little2 things like tetiba je ada org belikan i bedak talcum nak gantikan bedak i yg dah habis, hati boleh berbunga2 satu hari (sampai mati). Or bila dia tak mintak balik duit yg kononnya kita 'pinjam' utk beli lipstick, compact powder or baju tidur...

My cousin baru kahwin. Bila i tengah sibuk buat bunga telur dia, i tanya dia, betul ke you nak kahwin? Bukannya best sangat!! To this my uncle replied, hoi..apa2 pun kena kahwin jugak because sia dah banyak habis duit..!

Berbalik pada BFF i tadi, i said, sampai hati you tak bagitau i yg you dah jumpa chenta hati..but i said i understand why you did it. Dia kata ye ke, i said yes...You just want to make sure sampai benda ni dah konpem betul2..because when you tell me, i yg akan terlebih excited and then we tend to see things that might not be there..pas tu bila tak jadi apa2, jadi keciwa kuasa dua. And she said, that was exactly the reason why she didn't tell me earlier.

I am happy and sad at the same time. Dah takde dah kawan yg boleh pergi girly holidays dgn i...janji kita nak pi (mengorat jantan2) turki lepas habis phd ni mesti akan berkubur je...( a ah..kawan lagi sorang tu pun bukan boleh harap sangat..chenta hati depan mata je, habis tak dengor cerita langsung..bila tengah solo tu tak habih2 berdondang sayang lagu Corrs). Patutnya i suh je BFF i bermadu dgn i since MG je laki2 yg i tau tak kisah bininya kat mana (or it just with me ke?). Haha..

Oklah, enough merepek for tonight..