Ooo..it seems that i'm updating more than once a week now...i have this persistent feeling of 'the week before christmas' or 'the week before raya' sort of. You know you have kerja2 yang bertimbun but you really can't be arsed. Dah tak tau website apa nak disurf lagi.
I had a dream last night of MG. It makes quite a change from the usual dreams i've had while i'm in this condition. Btw, the usual ones were of some 'Sharon' encounters..apa you panggil Esah? Sharon? So graphic to the extent if i can wire my dreams to a tv screen, the movies will be box-office (and banned of course). 3 times already in the last one month. I once told MG, semalam i mimpi lesbo la...and he said, was i in it?? I said, yeah! You were watching....! Haha..raunchy tak tentu pasal. Padahal dia tak masuk scene langsung. I am going to be in this state until the bundle of joy (or sense) arrives i guess.
Anyway, the one on MG...i stumbled on his activities so to speak. Rupa2nya laki aku ni suka nak berangkat angkat kat office dia (is my dream trying to tell me something??) you know, the kind of adik / kakak type. I sort of asked him apasal you dah tua2 camni pun nak berangkat2? And he said, ala, suka2 saja kengkawan. Ni macam tinggalan dari sekolah asrama campur je...i yg dari sekolah tak campur ni nak tanya, kalau org tu rupa po-ot je, takde sapa nak angkat dia kan??? So angkat2 ni bias kat org lawa je kan.
I think my insecurities must be stemmed from zaman berpacaran dengan En. Sri Siamang dulu. I know dia memang suka nak beramas mesra dgn pompuan2, the gedik the better. He has said to me before that the cleverer the woman is, the least attractive she is. So he much prefered budak2 pompuan dari institut yg belum lagi jadi universiti lagi masa tu and jugak trainee2 stewardess kat KJ (belakang rumah dia). There were a few times masa Msian night kat uni kitaorg, dtglah puak2 Malaya dari seantero UK nun...i got this pandangan2 yg menikam kalbu dpd pompuan2 gedik tah mana2. I might have been imagining it tapi when i asked him you kenal ke that group of girls etc. and he'd say, oh yeah, i selalu jumpa diaorg dlm irc. I supposed being the beauty that he is (ye lah mamat iklan) i was the beast la kut. And mesti org tak caya yg I was the girlfriend. In fact when i came back to KL and started working and renting this place, the existing lodger masa tu cakap setelah we all bertukar2 sejarah, 'oo.. you gofren si XXX(siamang) tu ye..i thought he likes girls with chinese looks..So kenapa, aku ni rupa kelly-ing ke? Cis memang vavi betul!!
Oh yes, dia masa zaman tu memang giat berirc...i always thought when he said he's at the library, he was supposed to be doing some studying. Dah la asyik sangkut, 1st year sampai 3X, itupun in the end kena completekan kat San-wey, tapi irc tu macam org ketagih hidu gam lagaknya. I kan minah nerd and everyday i would have to spend until 9pm dok kat library and balik rumah naik 'female bus' tu (yes i would rather berpeleseran or tengok tv kat rumah cam housemates i yg buat accounting, seminggu 2-3X je class and now ni earning much more than me lak tu! But because of the demand of my course kenalah berakar umbi kat library). Any ordinary couple i know would study berdua2an kat library..iye study iye berfootsie tak tau la kan..but that was the norm. But si siamang ngan i sepanjang panjang tu tak pernah lak dia nak suggest activity cam tu...mana idaknya kan?
Sometimes i wonder why he picked me as his girlfriend? Agaknya, i am like everything that he's not, one that he probably should strive to be..we're as different as kumbang badak and ladybird. When he had to balik kampung to complete his 1st year, he asked me to settle kan bill BT dia when it arrived. So when it did, eh, i tengok ada satu nombor from Wales ni tiap2 malam dia call. Pas tu cakap half an hour, sejam...amboi boi! When i asked him, sapa punya nombor tu, dia cakap, ala, ada this girl, she's a few years older pun, i cuma bersembang pasal masalah2 kita. i met her through the irc. And i was sooo naive then! I terima bulat2 je. Now i know, no.1 kalau ada masalah dgn partner, cakap dgn partner la kan? Ni yg nak bermadah helah tiap2 malam ngan org luar lak tu apesal kalau tak cuba nak jual minyak atar?? no.2 just because she's a bit older doesn't mean it's all innocent...tengok la si Aida ngan Radzuan tu, mak kau beza umur 10 tahun. no.3 apa ke jadahnya suruh i pulak settle dia punya phone bill?? 80pounds you! i ingat lagi. Just imagine 8pounds boleh lepas grocery i seminggu, 80p boleh buat tambang i pergi balik dari rumah ke uni. And pompuan bodoh ni pi je keluar 80pounds!
So back to MG, in the dream, he gave me the same lame excuse that he likes to make friends and berkawan2 dgn pompuan apa salahnya. I couldn't remember what i said to him but i was really upset nonetheless. To me, one doesn't need to jump into bed with someone to be unfaithful.
So Mr Gig, in real life, if you're reading this, like i always tell you, if i hear any hanky panky going on at the office or mana2, i akan dtg bawak kapak ke office you and buat apa2 yg patut. then at home i will shred all your prized Zara and Raoul shirts and last but not least i will make sure i take you to the cleaners. So you have been warned.
P/S one of my colleagues told me today that ada client dia kena dibuat satu procedure and this client cakap 'saya nak trainer cantik yg dulu buat kat saya. Dia buat OK, tak sakit langsung!'
My colleague, 'trainer mana ni?'
Client 'ala yg chubby2 sikit tu'....
Cewah! See...i might be chubby but cantik..(2C's you!)...but try to imagine, 10 years ago, i was not this big..so kira cantik lah kan. OK la! Kalau i tak masuk bakul sendiri, sapa nak masuk and angkat kan??? Tapi si Jantan tu masih nak menggatal!
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