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I haven't told uols what happened during the last time i went to meet my SV. I went to his office, was quite surprised when his PA directed me to this meeting room instead. Lagi surprised when one staff was also asked to attend the meeting.But at that time, i couldn't care less anymore..it was make or break. Apa nak jadi, jadilah..even if i was to leave, i sanggup because i couldn't stand the stress anymore.

Then the SV came in..he asked me for updates on my research. i mentioned that while he was out of the country for 2 weeks, i encountered a serious problem and i had to see the co-SV instead (yg bukan calang2 academic juga orgnya). He was not happy with our decision in overcoming the problem..mak aihhh..dia marah macam orang kena sampuk. After 2 minutes, i switched off and pikir, apsal la nak marah sangat? Bukannya ,benda tu tak boleh di rectify pun and you don't have to get it out of proportion. Lepas tu dia soal i bertubi2, thank god i have answers to evrything..and dibacking oleh the staff yg present tu (although i'm thankful to her, i am still embarrassed with the way he spoke to me..i bukannya budak undergrad, bukannya calang2 calon..i am a pakar OK..but still..Pas tu i terpikir no wonder la staff dia boleh treat masters students cam plankton je..dah boss pun ada attitude kan.)

So he went on and on..bila dah banyak bercakap tu, lama2 dia pun reda la..pas tu dia tanya, ada problem lain? I said no..So he said, OK, that's all i think. I said, OK, before you go, i need to speak to you alone (so the other person got up and leave). he asked, so what is it?

So i told him that as it is i am stressed out enough about the machines breaking down, having to recruit large number of control population etc. without him adding to my stress meaning i hate to have this feeling that whenever he doesn't see me, he thinks i'm not doing any work. I said that i have dropped all other committments..i don't do any classes, see any clients or lectures because he said no. You know how he responded? He laughed!

I rasa cam nak baling kasut kat mukanya..i went on for 5 mins and had to sit and listen to him for another 45 mins. He went on how he wants me to excel, be at par with the biochemists etc. Bla..bla...bla..of course i cuma angguk and made the sppropriate noises..

Suffice it to say, at the end of the meeting, tak jadilah i quit. But lepas tu i called up my other co-SV yg kawan baik dgn dia tu, i cakap, lain kali kalau boss ada masalah dgn i, straight je cakap to my face. Jangan pi sound kat dia hoping that my co ni pulak yg sampaikan kat i. Apa takde balls ke? (and please relay the message verbatim hehe)

Dan dengan itu, setiap hari jugak i berdoa supaya dia dinaikkan ke pangkat yg lebih tinggi so that more important committments would make him forsake all others..hehe..