Nostalgia pedih

Prior to going overseas for my A-Levels, we were required to attend this prepatory course for 3 months. Masa tu la baru nampak jantan selepas berbelas tahun asik dok sekolah pompuan je..At that time, i rasa cam lelaki ni macam one of god's magnificent creation lah..so mysterious etc. etc. (sekarang ni cam rasa nak marah meluat je kalau teringat pasal jantan..apasal la mak i 'paksa' i kahwin, apsal la i tak cross over to the other side je kan? Kan Esah? Walaupun kau sayang kat aku cuma kerana maggi kari letop and kopok bantal, aku redha..)

At the course, there were about nearly as many boys as there were girls..if in terms nak bercouple2 ni, kira ratio allrightlah kan if not for the fact that some of the girls would have 5-6 peminat...Duh!

I was this really shy girl yg kalau boleh bila bertembung dgn jantan, i akan ikut jalan lain. Kenkadang tu kat corridor outside the classroom susah la sikit kan, nak melompat ke mana lagi kan? I'd rather tahan kencing than pergi bertembung dgn jantan2 yg suka hang out luar class during breaktime. The college cuma sepelaung je dari KL but never once during our time there that my friends and i ronda ke sana. We'd buy dinner from pakcik van..during that time, masih lagi boleh makan nasik bungkus rege tak mencecah nam posen pun..my favourite lauk would be tumis kobis, paru goreng/telur goreng and peggedil....paling happening pun malam2 mungkin kitaorg pergi gerai2 kat bawah asrama..

There were four of us girls and we were closed since we were classmates at this boarding school yg sungguh dikeji oleh Esah. Kat eng course tu pun we occupied one dormitory. It's really fun that time...we were 17 and we didn't have our parents with us and baru pertama kali lepas kandang. There were relationships that started during that short period of time dan ada yg sampai sekarang berbahagia..ada yg baru nak start tapi sudah didatangi oleh teman wanita si jantan dan dikasi warning, ada yg berchenta dgn org ni, kawin dgn org tu and now ni teruja nak start affair dgn org sinun pulak.

Alkisahnya, adala sorang jantan ni yg sepemalu i...he was in my class. At one time, the aircond at our classroom broke down and we had to move to another for at least a week..masa perpindahan tu, i was not around because balik kg because of measles, tup2 dah kena pindah class and i found my seat betul2 bawah aircond. My friends yg tolong book kan tempat duduk i and tengok2 sebelah jantan tu. the thing, he was sooo shy that we girls pulak yg nampak macho sebelah dia. Apakah motifnya kengkawan i tu seated me next to him pun, tak tau la! i kept complaining that i was cold because betul2 bawah aircond of course that guy being the gentleman that he was, he offered to switch seats with me. I supposed he was nice in a way...you know the quiet dependable one..tak banyak cakap...tapi biasa la kita pompuan yg baya tu, nak minat dgn org yg gedegangggggg je..(ustazah munah, if you are reading this, which i think you do, ni ditujukan kat you hehe) Even though he'd be one of the two boys (another one is not so macho either, last i heard he has crossed over to the other side) that walked back to the asrama with us, idakle kami2 gadis genit ni thrill sangat because we were hoping that guys yg lebih mengancam instead to walk with us..(ptuih tak sedar diri).

After a while we noticed that he had a soft spot probably, for me..When we came back to college after raya, i made a remark to him how i love dodol (tipu je..ni ayat2 nak menunjukkan how like gadis kampung i am..sekali lagi ptuiiihh)..tu dia, the next day, tertonggoklah sebungkus dodol kat i..this guy went back to his house in KL on that very same day after class to get the dodol for me. Flattered ke tak??? Huish..still lagi tak menghargai jenis2 lelaki yg quiet but dependable ni...jenis camtu buat kena makan je..

He brought me some chocolates also once..tak berapa ingat dah. But this i appreciate sangat2 la because i pun hantu cekelat (sebab tu Esahlah di hati ku sekarang kerana dia pembawa cekelat yg tegar untukku). OK la, at the end of the day, it's finally nice to have someone yg minat kat kita rather than kitaaaa je yg dok minat and usha orang..but of course kalau tetiba the class's TomCruise or JasonDonovan (aik? tetiba je nama mamat has been ni timbul) minat kat i, bye bye quiet guy. I patut dah perasan dari dulu kan...it's so hard to be with someone so quiet..kita cakappp je about just anything the sun and dia dok menyeringai je kat situ..in fact during our farewell dinner, he sat at the same table as me and itu je la kerojenya, dok menyerongen (org perak kata menyeringai). Then we had to go for this orientation lagi smeinggu nak fly. I told you all about my friend and i yg tak naik bas (the twilight zone) balik KL. That afternoon we got to keluar pekan, so i pun terpikir2 apa ke i nak bagi kat this guy, since after that i won't be seeing him anymore because we'd be on different flights. Payah sikit mamat ni..tak main la cekelat..he was on diet persistently (idakle tembam cam debab durjana si esah). So i bought him 2 humongous apples..utk lapik perut atas bas yg selama 8 jam perjalanan itu. (according to ustazah munah, kesian dia apple tu bergolek2 kat dlm bas dari belakang ke depan, ke belakang balik. Jenuh mamat tu mengejarnya)

On the day of my flight, he came to the airport and gave me a rose. Not real one but la ni baru i tau, ooo...itu ke bunga dip cam bunga org kawin. And it was not red in colour so he was playing it safe. I kept the rose in my hand luggage and it got crushed by the time i arrived in the UK. I told him i'd write to him..about a month later, he came over but we never met. Bila cuti, we'd go down to London but he never did. I think we must have written to each other once or twice.

Then...in my 2nd year at uni, i nak le berjejak kasih dgnnya..my friends at the same uni as him said that he was still single. Masa tu jugak people dah start guna email..so i though, what have i got to lose kan??? So, i wrote him: hi Quiet Guy, i hope you still remember me..how are you doing? Bla..bla...

A few days later, came his email, 'Hi..You are CK who?' Ces! $%%#$%!