I chenta tapi i feeling2 ikan tuna gitu

Last night i was watching this Trinny and Susannah on ITV. These 2 image or fashion consultants deciding on what colour suit some people etc. They thought that people in the UK wear too much black. I have always fancied dark (black) clothes because i thought they'd make me look slimmer. But as they two ladies proved that it's actually a myth. Colours make people look less dowdy and more attractive. So each one of us have colours that would suit our 'colouring'. Be it warm, cool or mid. Anyway, i pun tanyalah MG, what colour am i? (Ye lah mengenangkan dia tu kan artistic..). He said, 'you are dark brown.' I said, really? Ingatkan dia selalu suruh i be bold, jangan pakai colour cam nak pi berkabung je. He said, yes, but you know i prefer pink, right? Ces! Balik2 ke situ! If you all have  followed this blog for sometime, you'd know that MG is quite fixated with certain pinkish thing. Menyampah!

There are days that i feel that i could suffocate him in his sleep but yesterday was not one of them. In fact, since weekend bila dia dah dapat beg sekolah idaman hatinya for his birthday, menyerongen (org perak kata menyeringai) je kerjanya.  Yes, i buy his love...we do that for our loved ones right? Lagipun suka apa i tengok bila dia menyerongen...lagipun, my birthday is coming and i've been eyeing for a black diamond ring (tak mo kalah dgn carrie on SITC2)...or jam tangan bling2 pun cantik gak or that AH bag..(alaaa..setakat bag je, i pun boleh beli seniri. Sila abaikan statement berlagak ni). Amboiiii..kemain ko CN ye, ngata aku habiskan duit phd pi beli handbag and makan sushi..! Sikit juga ada betulnya..hehe..this time round i cannot go throw2 my money lah...need to buy the cuka getah..tapi like i said to my colleagues, tengok sapa paling cepat buat quoatation: tokey cuka atau uncle tomeih or uncle habibi..:)

Sapa kita yg tak pernah membeli chenta? Ada yg beli dgn wang ringgit...ada yg membeli dgn penat lelah...dan ada yg membeli dgn kata2 janji pelesu. Since i ni bukanlah set2 nigellalawson, kekdah duitlah yg paling senang bagi i. Sib baik ada jugak sikit duit, if not, kenalah jugak i bersilat kat dapur. Ada someone i know, yg suka chentanya dibeli dgn macam2 barangan idaman hati. Tapi dia kata chentanya bukan utk dijual pada mamat tu, tapi ko mintak jugak kan?? Tau je lah kan, pompuan ni ada napsu sampai 9 or is it 99 ke? (99 brands of designer handbags and bling2??). Tapi sebagaimana dulu masa i student membeli chenta siamang dgn mempersembahkan juadah2 yg impressive la gak jaman tu (pasal masa jaman student kan kayap), in the end, chentanya tak terbeli gak. So, sesiapa yg tahu chentanya sungguh la dibeli itu, dah dah la tu...sekiranya awak takde langsung rasa chenta di hati, come cleanlah...sekiranya awak rasa setelah awak berjaya dapat tiara mikimoto pearls bak miss universe tu chenta awak mungkin terbeli juga, saya rasa pergi2 lah ke kaunseling jiwa ke, rumahtangga ke. Moga2 anda semua akan bahagia. At the end of the day, hidup di dunia ni cuma sementara and kita semua tahu dunia yg fanaa nantilah kita nak bahagia (cewah! Feeling2 ustazah). Sudah2lah menyiksa jiwa si pembeli tu..and i say this because i care.

Lepas tu, ada pulak someone tu berkata kat i yg chenta = accepting the other person's weaknesses. I ni idak le centre sangat paksinya..ada org tu yg berkecimpung dalam bidang org2 sakit jiwa cakap i mungkin ada bipolar disorder. Mungkin ye kut. I do crazy things like angkat wiper kereta org for no reason, or tinggal bobo dlm toilet and tutup covernya just because i'm pissed off with that person for something and that's how i lashed back at him atau jadi toyol. Mak i pun pernah cakap yg among her kids, i'd do the craziest things when i want to make a point.  Anyway, it's not about me here. This someone adalah seperti mother theresa. She gives, gives and gives only..she doesn't expect anything much in return. I pun kenkadang isap gak darah dia, demand nak tu nak ni. And dia buaaaaaatkan je. I cakap kat dia, partner awak tak menghargai awak. Dia cakap, she appreciates me in her own way lah. I cakap, how can like that one? You give10, you get back 3. Tu yg dia cakap we have to accept that person's weaknesses. In my opinion, weaknesses tu macam contohnya: you like to sembang2 in bed before going to sleep, but your partner ni, dengar 2 min je pas tu dah bunyi macam lori rosak. Dia cepat tertidur..then that's one weakness. Ataupun, you cakap dah2  la dok kirai duit...anak2 nak kena sekolahkan jugak. Tapi your partner nampak je mesin jakpot terus dia rasa dia in happy hour. Contohnya le  kan..itupun, up to certain point, these weaknesses la nanti akan buat kita tertanya2 sendiri.  Sanggup ke aku cakap sensorang dlm gelap for the next 20 years atau sanggup ke  aku berlakikan kaki judi sampai mati? Adakah the other person's weaknesses = that person's  unwillingness to change (atas nama chenta)? Kita tepuk dada dan tanya selera kita. Like i said before, yes chenta memerlukan pengorbanan...tapi kalau agak2 kita saja yg menjadi korbannya, adakah kita ni berchenta dgn suku sakat hantu raya? Setengah2 tu tak susah utk kita berubah demi org yg kita sayang...laki i cakap, you ni weekend pun tak buatkan i minuman..kerana chenta i pun bercupaklah doa that dia lambat balik dari pasar so i have time to snooze and then roll out of bed to make him a drink. Katalah laki aku ni kerja kat AddisAbaba ke and i cuma jumpa dia 3 bulan sekali...lagilah i akan make sure dia akan happy sentiasa (sebabnya bila tak de kat depan mata lagilah feeling lebih2 kan?). And pada i lah, making sure the person we love tu tak kelaparan adalah yg paling basic boleh kita buktikan sesungguhnya i lap you. Eh tapi tak taulah, some people may beg to differ..'i tak perlukan perut i diisi, tapi i nak you buktikan chenta you dgn mmenerkam i sejurus i masuk je ke rumah'.. manalah tau kan, lain org lain seleranya. Apa-apa pun, i say this because i care..honestly.