WTF! #$%^%$$#

I am still at home despite the fact that i'am supposed to be at work half an hour ago. Bukanlah tak biasa cam ni but this morning it's not because of the usual 'mengantuknya, i'll go in later and come back late' kind of thing.

It all started dgn my parents yg decided to grace upon us their presence. Us here meaning not me or my brother but my sister...memang i ni keji, adik beradik ada tiga org je but itupun still i nak cari pasal, kan? Anyway, my parents ni sayang sangatlah cucu sana tu because ye lah, for all of 10 years diaorg je yg wujud....so, logiklah memang kalau datang ke lembah kelang ni, tak terfikir pun nak kerumah anak lain. But i used to pujuk and really begged my parents to come over to my place...ye la..i ni anak bongsu, i used to be so closed to them. Mula2 my parents will come up with all sorts of excuses like my father too tired to drive to my place, takut sesat, susah nak cari rumah i..yg ye nya dia tak sanggup berpisah dgn cucunya. It came to the extent that whenever my parents dtg sini, they will menyorok, takkan bagitau i or my brother.

When i found out, mula2 tu memang kecik hati tersangat2 tapi bila fikir2 balik, nak buat apa kalau org tak mau takkan nak paksa...so, like i always do when i'm faced with this kind of crisis is to retreat je la..kalau my parents nak datang i sambut, kalau tak i buat tak peduli je.

Sampai la satu masa tu i dengar suara2 sumbang yang mengatakan ye la, my parents tak datang rumah i bukannya apa tapi because i tak pernah mengajak..? WTF???!

Memang i confronted my mum about this tapi biasalah org2 tua ni, cakap lebih2 mana boleh...dia pulak tuduh my dad yg tak boleh berenggang dgn cucu sana and dia selalu serba salah.

You know, i was beginning tak ambil kisah benda2 ni but when i have little D of course it's beginning to hurt a bit...i will try not to membebel to her bila dia dah faham nanti why the opah and atuk don't see her as much as the other cucus...(my mum selalu bagi we all complex dulu because apparently our grandparents dulu pun ada la rumah2 anak yg jadi favourite dia and ours was not one of them).

Ok, nak dijadikan cerita, this weekend my parents were at my sis. I dapat tau dari mulut org lain and not from them or my sis. Padahal about two weeks ago, i called up my mum and tanya takde ke nak dtg sini and jumpa little D. And banyak la cakapnya, my father tak sihat la, dia taknak tinggal kelas (agama ) dia la etc. etc. Fine...so, when i got to know, i fikir, takpelah..siapalah kita ni kan. Kalau dia nak panggil we all dtg mengadap, we all datang, kalau tak tak mau la hidung tak mancung kan..

Lepas tu adalah si minah self righteous ni hantar sms yg macam pan@#t yang menaikkan darah i..like if only i call my mum often, i would know her itinerary etc. WTF la?!! Bencinya aku! I don't need it especially it all started with me choosing to be gracious and not create any tension between adik beradik and my parents..to let them just do whatever they want. At the end of the day, aku pulak yg kena balik??

There's no point talking to my parents because my mum especially will always defend her and cakap 'kesian dia, anak ramai..sibuk, buat part time degree lagi..lakinya gaji tak besar. Budak2 tu balik sekolah kena transit lagi, bukannya balik rumah terus..' Memang sebelum ni i takde issue dgn my sis, good for herlah that my parents suka dok kat rumah dia, ada gak org nak bela anak dia, kan??

What i want to say to my mum is:

1. Anak ramai? Dia yg tak berenti nak beranak. Dah dr kata it's dangerous for her because the last two had placenta previa tapi still nak lagi tu. Ikut cakap suami pasal suami kata kalo tak dia akan kawin lain..(helo abang H..jgn cakap berlagak..cermin muka and tepuk wallet dulu)

2. Dulu ada peluang buat degree, drop out halfway pasal nak kawin. Takde siapa paksa. Our parents gave all the anak equal chance..semua hantar tuition, beli reference books etc. Bukannya dia tu di anak tirikan..so kalau dia dulu gatai nak kawin sekarang ni baru semput nak sambung degree pas tu kena delay dua sem pasal in between sibuk nak beranak, nak salahkan org lain ke???

3. Ada sesapa paksa kawin ngan Abg H ke? Semua kerana cinta kan walaupun tau abang H kerja pomen je kan? Bukannya takde org lain nak..tapi cinta itu buta bodoh kan??

4. Anak dah 4 pas tu merata2 org bela. Kalo ambik maid lagi jimat sebenarnya and rumah pun tak la macam kapal karam. Tau apa dia jawab masa suruh ambik je maid dulu? 'i taknak org bukan muhrim dalam rumah'..oh tidak! rasa terpukul aku yg cetek agama dan laki yg lebih hensem and lebih banyak duit ni (eii! bongkaknya i!) Ok fine, lepas tu jgn la asyik2 bila org bela anak nak cuti akan summon our parents from kampung. Org tua tu yg akan bagi 1000macam alasan nak dtg rumah i kalau boleh akan terbang bela cucunya..and selalunya bila dah balik kampung balik, my father akan masuk hospital because terlampau penat. Anak mithali ke camni??

So, i memang pening kepala bila dapat sms puaka dari my sis semalam..kalo sesapa nak initiate jejak kasih antara we all, tak hingin aku! Cakap main ikut sedap mulut je! Pas tu nak pretend as if dia la yg call our parents selalu..cam aku tak tau! My dad pernah mengadu kat somebody ni yg dia pun sama je sebenarnya..harapkan anak2 dia je yg call, dia nye jarang cakap dgn our parents..tapi biasala kan..my mum asyik nak cover dia. And my mum suka lecture i kenapa i tak pernah nak call sembang2 ngan dia..mak oi...the only thing i have in common with her is our genes and perhaps the fact that bila kentut mungkin baunya sama. Other than that?? I think not!

Btw, kereta i tak boleh start pagi ni, battery flat. So tengah tunggu pomen dtg pun. Ni mesti dosa aku mengumpat darah daging sendiri...