Of love and elvavi

I'm at the workshop tengah tunggu kereta diservice. Sejuk bedi tempat ni, had i known, would have brought a pashmina. Ada la throw kat boot kereta but itu nak hantar dryclean because si Boyot pi kencing...actually dah berjaman kat belakang kereta.

Yesterday a colleague brought an Elvavi (as Miss AA would say) handbag to work. Hati ni bergedebak-gedebuk tatkala mengulit kulit bag tu....satu pagi menjalankan research di internet (ooo..tak buat kerja rupanya, kalau SV ku tahu..)..should i or should not? Mengambil kesempatan di sebalik jatuhnya matawang GBP and Euro. Tried emailing Esah yang berperanan yakni sebagai Ketua Pemasaran Segala Neka (dari cat kepada majalah2 yg tak sesuai dibaca di khalyak ramai)..mungkin i perlukan khidmat you sayangku..tapi you pulak lenyap dari muka pesbuk..i panic! Kepada siapakah boleh ku kirim..But it was a blessing in disguise that i couldn't get you...kalau idak dah buat purchase over the internet dah..

Bila nalik rumah, i tengok si kedek2 dua org kat rumah tu dah pergi kaler2 sofa dgn watercolour. Ni sapa punya idea pi beli paint brush kat depa ni? Sofa yg sedia ada cuma satu and that itupun dari jaman2 baru kahwin and main rumah2. Sarungnya dah koyak at the seams, zip tak boleh tutup dah because it was supposed to be dry cleaned but i couldn't be arsed hence sarungnya dah mengecut. Kat tepi arm rest ada kesan cakar anak2 bulu yang tak dengar cakap. Ada entah apa2 tanda lagi kat sofa...it's high time we say goodbye to the sofa.

So i called up MG....btw, perbincangan serious begini i selalu mulakan minitnya on the line..sebabnya laki i tu, bila balik rumah dia dah penat nak pikir..semua kata ye pas tu satu masa bulan mengambang nanti dia akan cakap, i tak kata ye pun...ish2 dah maska sangat dgn perangai dia. Btw, i called him up earlier, he had to leave a meeting sekejap to answer my call because agaknya dia ingat mesti serious when the first two dia ignore, pas tu i called lagi. And i wanted to ask, 'i tingin la bag elvavi..cuba you check website ni, bagnya murah je..' And MG said, 'nak belilah..ish murah2 camtu mesti tipu punya..'. Walaupun satu hari nanti he might trade me in for a younger, curvaceous, mind challenging version, i akan selalu ingat yg satu masa dulu, he was my shopping advisor (last night i dreamt that he took part in the MardiGraas parade..apakah maknanya mimpiku??)

Anyway, back to the evening phonecall (dia masih kat opis melayan mak jands yg muda2 katanya), i said, i nak ganti sofa OK, so no elvavilah. OK katanya..tapi prinsip hidup i kan minimalist, yg masuk kena ganti dgn benda yg kena keluar. I didn't mention to him that 2 more chairs akan kena lelong because i nak bawak masuk piano..hehe..(btw, no one in this house yg belajar piano..yet).

Just as well, tadi i mintak the workshop people estimate the service charge today, katanya RM1300..*gulp*..sib baiklah service cuma 10 bulan sekali.

I berazam utk tidak puasa yang yok hari ni (dah nak dekat ramadhan baru terkocoh2 nak ganti puasa..errr Esah, anda bagaimana??). Tapi blog hopping blog orang2 yg suka memasak..checked out jugak youtube cemana nak buat homemade cheese and naan bread without the proper oven tanah..oh mannn...imanku senipis kulit popiah.

Berikutan dgn blog yg telah digembar gemburkan oleh sokhabar Kosmo (shame on you Kosmo) mengenai pemasalahan suami isteri ni, i said to MG..tengoklah, kesian this lady, she really devoted her life to her husband and kids. Pas tu jantan kan.....

This is not the first and it's not going to be the last either. Senang betul org laki ni to tinggalkan teman setia selama berdekad dekad and keruhkan perhubungan dgn anak2, kerana 'barang baru'. Seperti this top person in my field..di goda oleh junior colleague (beza umur cam DatoK and DatoSN), ceraikan isteri and putuskan hubungan dgn anak2. Laa ni bini baru kena berada di luar negara, tinggalah jantan menjadi 'sebatang kara' di Msia.

Then MG said to me, 'tengoklah, you tak devote your life to me pun (whatever la si jantan ni meant) i tak buat hal, ok?'

CK, 'elo..perjalanan hidup kita masih jauh..sekarang ye la tak buat hal, mana i tau lagi 5, 10 tahun..whatever it is, hidup i adalah utk i dan anak2..'

Nampak macam harsh kan cakap macam tu..but this is the real world. Badai mungkin melanda suatu hari nanti, kita tak tahu lagi. My mum always say, if you want peace, you have to prepare for war..

Suatu masa dahulu, mak si siamang pernah called me up at the office. Ni lama jugak lepas i dah break up dgn anak dia. She has never shown she was keen on me but she was never hostile either. Dia bertanya kenapa tak jadi, apa masalahnya, kenapa tak pi cakap kat dia etc. Laaaa...in the first place, kalau hati orang dah tak suka, tak yah la nak mintak keluarganya campur tangan pulak kan? Lagipun, i think she called me then because dia tengok anaknya cam sikit2 ada sakit otak, and i lah kut obatnya...idakle pulak i pi bomoh2kan anaknya kan..even though kalau la jam2 i kena dump tu i mati heart attack, memang i nekad nak datang balik as hantu..

What hit him was conscience. It's not that easy to find teman yg nak bersusah2 sama2, yang nak menabur tenaga, airmata, wang GBP, yang sanggup la dengar cite, masalah etc. Nak cari teman yg tukang habiskan duit memang senang...
but antara tu, sempat lak maknya menasihatkan i yg cinta pada tuhan saja yg kekal di dunia ni, cinta pada manusia kenkadang boleh bawa padah. Like i don't know la kan..

OK, kereta i dah siap..