Moral support lah sangat...

Baru-baru ni i pi mesyuarat PIBG sekolah anak2 i. Little D dah masuk jah 3 and i baru first time terbit. Well, masa dia jah 1...i was just lost in my own world. Satu benda pasal sekolah dia i tak tau...tau2 je dia ada baju sekolah, buku sekolah yg semua elok berbalut, school badge semua berjahit etc. That's how 'lost' i was in my PhD world. 

Then naik jah 2 fuse i yg terbakar dah ok balik sikit...masa tu memang i merancang nak beraktif dlm hal ehwal anak and their school matters ni. I hated the vending machine at her school with passion. I rasa cam nak cekik orang2 kantin yg menjual tah hapa2 and entice her to spend her RM 1 yg dia ada. Yup...i bagi dia singgit je duit belanja bec dia bawak bekal. Btw, with singgit she can still get nasik lemak, mee etc. Tak tau la banyak mana, kan...but still dia tak pernah complaint. One day a week tak yah bawak bekal and she gets more money to spend to hee heart desires. 

Anyway, i so wanted to attend last year's pibg meeting and talk about healthy diet...but i had a case of low self esteem..me talking about healthy eating?? Look from where it's coming from..kata suara2 sumbang rekaan kepala otak i. On the pibg day itself i chickened out. I conveniently forgot about it.

And then this year...with Baby X entering jah 1...something has got to change. So i dragged MG along untuk moral support. I told him that i want to raise some issues. Not forgetting the much hated vending machine..issue lain was when going through the booklet on the school's past year's activities, takdak satu pun yg berbaur2 charity. The most the pupils got in terms of menengok kesusahan orang lain was if they were to watch 'Bersamamu' on tv. Pastu, the other parents asyik membuat usulan pasal kelas tambahan...parking tak cukup utk drop their kids off...cikgu besar yak yak pasal misi nak dapatkan status SBT..

You know...i ni bukanlah jenis yg sikit2 nak angkat tangan bagi opinion dlm meeting etc. I'm more of a do-er belakang tabir. But i think on that day i couldn't help myself. Obese or not obese, i've to put forward my motion. Lagi2 sebelum tu ada bapak budak ni pun sentuh issue kanti jual junk food. I tengok dia pun taklah hot mana pun..but lengkaplah dia memberitahu dia kerja as pensyarah etc. 

But vending machine punya hal jadi issue kecik pulak pada i masa tu. I was more triggered by the fact that kecemerlangan akademik je yg depa kisahkan..baik parents or the cikgu besar. Its all about how to make the school a more condusive place to excel in their studies. Ok..but is that enough??

So i got up...well actually i menggelitis angkat tangan and rushed to the mic. Of course i mentioned a bit on the vending machine...but i raised the issue of us i.e. Kids, parents and teachers giving back to society. I mentioned about the lack of activities berunsur kemasyarakatan such as melawat rumah org tua, anak yatim, oku, furry sanctuary etc. Berkobar2 i bercakap pasal how kita ni mendidik anak bukan saja utk excel dlm akademik but utk menjadi pemimpin juga. 

I thought i saw MG cringing in his seat...prolly pretending that he didn't know me. Itupun dia dah escape masuk kereta and i fished him out the first time.  I berucap gaya ketua wanita hamno (ni perasan i je lah...MG said i sounded so frigid - not quite sure what he meant). MG pura2 jawab tepon...pastu dia leboh* sekali lagi. Talk about moral support ler sangat, kan?!

And then came to the pemilihan ajk for this year. The bapak budak that cakap kerojenya pensyarah tu got elected for some post. Dia reluctant pun org pujuk...yg aku ni?? I was just one fat makcik walaupun cakap berapi2! (Idak dipandangnya dek deme -aiyok terus kluar cakap cam Pah Bedah).

On hindsight, should have pakai my title when introducing myself. Lagi bagus cakap kerja mana jabatan apa semua...cam pak budak tu...i was just a plain Puan on that day. In fact they even got my name wrong..tetiba je aku jadi Cik Piah! My colleagues said, should have told them yg i ni dlm panel pemilihan utk masuk IPTA...yes folks...we don't pandang A's yang berkodi2 tu ye...klau anak2 uols pi cuci poopoo kat rumah orang2 tua or kandang harimau kat zoo, she'd be laughing and skipping all the way to a place at 'this' IPTA. So, kecemerlangan akademik bukan tiketnya semata2..

That's all this fat makcik has to say.

P/S

Uols tengok wasap kat atas tu...cubaan MG utk melesapkan diri. First time i berjaya panggil dia masuk meeting balik. Lepas i bercakap, leboh terus! Pandai salahkan i yg beranak pulak 😠

*leboh = lesap

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Random thoughts

Hola! 

Sometimes, when it is late at night, i feel like writing a blog post. Have loads of random thoughts from last year...but as we know, banyak sangat tragedi yg berlaku in 2014..the creativity was stifled.

Anyway, nak cerita pasal food. I stumbled upon goreng pisang cheese at least half a decade ago in Medan. Masa makan tu rasa...wow..! What not to like? Goreng pisang? Suka. Cheese? Gua hantu cheese. Tambah coklat pulak...Heavenly sungguh! Then, mid of last year when i was in Kuching, went to this unassuming little cafe near Pullman Hotel for its ayam penyet. Had gpc for dessert...the best gpc i've had so far! Large, crispy pisang goreng...if you're in Kuching, go visit De Monas cafe.

Then....tetiba gerai gpc muncul so near to my office! Bukan satu, tapi tiga! If sesiapa lalu dekat TPCA (old stadium) near HKL, cari gerai 1001. Tak ingat harga...RM7 rasanya. Pisang disusun 2 tingkat. With generous amount of cheese n choc rice, oreo, cornflakes ...whatever takes your fancy. Adik yg membuatnya pun so peramah. I cakap kat dia klau bawak tupperware sendiri harus dibagi 2 gpc free..save the earth gittew..so uols, bawak bekas sendiri ye...and cakap kat dia acik kereta kumbang merah said so...hihi...pepandai je i!

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I ordered this cake for MG's birthday. Uols tak rasa i ni menghiburkan hati ke??? Well, the kids potong stim. Depa heran why i would want to put a pic of a fat person on the cake. Duh! Baby X tanya why don't i want Frozen's Elsa or Winx Club ke...hmm...klau ikut citarasa daddynya, i rasa tukang buat cake tu mungkin tak sanggup kut nak cope dgn cake yg x -rated. Little D langsung tak makan kek tu pasal dia 'jijik' katanya....ikut sapalah anak aku ni prude sangat...not that i mind at all...bigger share for me and her dad. Pastu, came my birthday MG bagi i SR je uols! Selalu tu ada jugak from Slice of Heaven..but last year SR je! Sampai hati! And then he couldn't understand kenapa i sentap, boleh?? So sentap to the extent that colleagues at work pulak yg pi belikan red velvet cheese cake from SOH..diva sangat! Anyway, sayang sangat kat diorg.

Itu je lah nak cerita.

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How can you not like cats? (edited)

Short entry. Pasal anak-anak bulu.

Monty is 11 years old this year. Actual birthday tak tau. Ambik dia kat Klinik Haiwan somewhere near Teluk Cempedak.

He's still going strong...i hope for many more years to come.
Peel dari kecik sampai kertu tak berubah....takut sangat kat thunderstorm. Katalah dia dah masuk rumah sebelum hujan..animals can tell kan? Dia then lepak2 atas katil dengan i dalam bilik. At the first sound of thunder dia mesti lari turun bawah untuk nyorok bawah cabinet. That's his rain shelter. Apa salah dok atas katil kan?? Oh no no no..mesti lari masuk rain shelter. 

Haaa...nampak tak ekor montok sapa yang kluar dari rain shelter tu?? Lagi satu, when he kneads, kuku mesti keluar. Tak kasi, dia protest. Bising mulutnya. So kasila..even over baju pun, bercalar balar perut kita. Sayaaaaangggg sangat kat dia!

Ugi pulak is 9 years old this year. Born on labour day. Memang budak Wilayah Pers. through and through. Spends all her time atas kerusi kat balcony. Makan, minum, bobo semua kat balcony. Awal masa temp maid masuk, hari2 bobo atas sofa...itu temp maid sudah mau cekik sama dia. Udah la acik tu kurang mesra kucing. Rumah semak kucing yg salah. Lantai kotor kucing yg buat. Budak2 demam jangkit dek kucing...and the list goes on...hish! I sabar je ni...kalau tak....

Well, back to Ugi...since tak mo temp maid lari, i jenuh nak mendalami psychology dia. Litter box tak cukup luas ke? Tak mo litter box bertutup ke? Location ke? Tak cukup ke? (ngada, they have 3 litter boxes between the 2 of them...in fact Monty melepas kat timbunan pasir rumah sebelah lagi..shushhhh!) Warna litter box ke?? Until i changed the litter in hers to the pasir type and not crystals...although i much prefer the latter pasal langsung takde bau. Terus Ugi happy and tak buat hal dah..So continue balik tidur 22 jam sehari tanpa menimbulkan masalah pada acik temp maid.

Kesian depa...di usia2 emas ni dapat pulak 'cat sitter' yang nyampah tengok depa...hmm...prolly i should sit down with the acik and go over the hiearchy at no. 31 ni: Prince Monty, Princess Ugi, Me, MG, Little D, Baby X.....Abang Kuning, Blacky, the female tompok cat..blaaa...blaa...and then acik temp maid.

Itu je nak cerita.

Kehilangan

Kehilangan orang yg kita sayang...walaupun bukanlah cinta sejati atau masih sayang atau sayang separuh mati suatu ketika dulu, bila orang tu pergi, hati masih terdetik dan teringat2 kat orang tu.

Kehilangan supermaid i? Perit....2 minggu macam orang putus cinta. Nangis, marah, carut, seru...semua dah. In the end terasa eh!..Mongoknya aku. Still, i wish her well. Nantilah...esok2 i cerita the cinetron she got up to bila dah angau, decided to remarry her ex and not come back. Ye laa...kita pun paham sangat kes2 angau kat ex ni...ada orang tu ex perangai serhope entah apa2 itu jugak yg didambakan. Atau bila terkena angin angau...sanggup tu buang mak, buang saudara, buang kawan....Still..this post is not about orang angau.

My friend (MSU=Mat Surau United) who decided to leave for greener pastures. Bukan setakat tukar company je...sampai tukar 'kerakyatan' terus. Kenal dia sejak dari he and i bujang lagi. We fought, we made up...kecik hati...kutuk belakang....i salu pinjam settee kat office dia utk tido during lunchtime before got my own sofa. We made it through 17 years of friendship surprisingly tanpa digossipkan oleh sesapa. In his farewell speech, he said he didnt know what we two had but there's something there. 

(Cerita dulu-dulu: First time i jumpa dia, masing2 bujang. Then he got engaged and married. I told him that at that time bukan tak boleh nak mengorat dia but i was in my 20s, peluang masih terbuka and it was not my style to ngorat boipren, tunang or laki orang. But if i were still single now, i'd prolly tak kisah bec i need a man to fix things around the house since i'm damn hopeless at d.i.y! Hahaa!. Dia pulak kata yg i was always blur...half the time yg masa i single tu was spent longing after my on-off siamang of a boipren). 

Now that he's gone, bridges burnt, it's the end of an era...dia pergi and tak mungkin kembali lagi (bekerja di bawah satu bumbung).

My 3rd kehilangan...i've talked about him here:

http://makbulu.blogspot.com/2009/09/telenovela-babak-2.html?m=1

http://makbulu.blogspot.com/2009/09/telenovela-babak-3.html?m=1

http://makbulu.blogspot.com/2009/09/telenovela-episod-4.html?m=1

Mat Hitam=MH. In fact MSU from above baru bercakap pasal MH a few weeks ago. Our classmate masa Masters. MSU mentioned how i turned 180deg from Siamang yg set2 Zul Ipin to MH yg....err...certainly not Denzel or tidak juga kuntakinte. My weakness is intelligent man...(why do u think i spinned my web around MG? Or why i fell for Orang Minyak yg dah la hitam pastu jongos pulak! - harus kutuk lebih sikit bec he 'dumped' me)

I masih teringat2 cara MH cakap...his wits...wisdom...cemaslah mak i jugak di suatu ketika dahulu - takut dapat cucu bulat, gelap serta rambut kinting 7 keturunan tak hilang. Tidaklah kami pernah bercinta agung...like MSU, there was something there. Pernahkah i terfikir 'what if'? Jawapannya tak. He's a christian...tiap2 sunday pi church...tiap2 sabtu pi mabuk. Cita2 dia masa tu was balik Kenya jaga lembu beribu ekor. Orang Msia balik kg bawak kereta Merc...dia bawak tractor. Kalau dia ada cakap dia nak stay on kat UK pun i might have considered...sikit la. Elok i nak off tepon masa dah dlm perut MAS nak balik Msia for good, message dia masuk cakap 'lap u'. Takdenya berbaur romantic ye kengkawan...so abaikan.

Sebulan lebih kut pastu, MSU yg masih berhubungan dgn dia, told me that he'd gone home for good...and got married! Tak ke acik terkejut???! Kemain lagi dia..lap u, lap i, lap her lah..Berjurai jugaklah airmata ni...sampai my bff cakap kat i yg sebenarnya i ni menangis bec dia kawin dulu sebelum i...hahaha! Terus i stop bec...memang betul pun!

Anyway...dia penyeri hidup i masa tu (ada jugak orang nak kisah kat aku...camtulah i fikir). Early this week, MSU wasap kat i bagitau MH dah takde...he died nearly 3 years ago. All this while we reminisced about him (even my mum mentioned about him once in a blue moon), he's actually gone...! Whatever he was to me...nak kata kawan bukan kawan, nak kata boipren bukan boipren..although we didn't keep in touch...there was always this vision of mat black tembam naik tractor jaga lembu, somewhere in Kenya...kut2 satu hari esok i nak bawak anak2 i pi safari ke sana, i would surely look him up...expect dia tunggu we all kat airport....all this while and i didn't know...

Bye bye MH. Thank you for making me laugh once upon a time.

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2015

I was happy to bid farewell to 2014.

Not a good year for Msia and not for me either.

Had a tough time at the end of the year.

Was close to breaking point if not for the Guy up there yg maha mendengar.

How does one get over a betrayal? 

I'm in the middle of 'grieving' process. The anger's gone...now i'm bargaining...with God. 

When looking at the pictures of my kids, home etc on my hp, i keep classifying them into pre and post 'her'.

I couldn't fathom her actions...the extent that she went through with her deceit..

 However much i miss her and hate her for it, i still hope that one day she'd return.

Here's hoping for a better 2015.

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Kicap

Sapa ritu ada tengok cite slot akasia yg ada FahrinAhmad and SaraAli tu? Sejak AriannaRose i dah jadi mokcik (ni istilah laki i)...slot akasia je mesti i nak nengok..dgn anak2 and maid. MG tertengok kalau dia balik office masa tu...pastu dia pretend cam dia tak tengok...kenkadang i caught him sengih2..

Ada satu adegan ni yg si Luq (FA) lepas menjalankan tanggungjawabnya sebagai swomi (ehem!) buat pertama kali..pastu dia selak bawah duvet ada tompokan keperawanan bininya..oh amat berpuashati dia kerana sebelum ni dia ada sedikit gusar samada bininya bohsia seperti yg telah diwar2kan..(tipikal cerita melayu sangat tauuu!)

Pastu Little D bertanya..'mummy, apa tu??'

CK: Kicap...kan tadi dia ada order room service? Lepas tu tertumpahlah..(tidakkah uols kagum dgn jawapan spontan i? Sungguh bergeliga otak i)

Pastu dgn tetiba dari mana tah.....'I nak kicap! I nak kicaaappppp!'
Ekeleh...cik swomi ku cukup nak kena ni!

And lepas tu sesikit MG akan cakap, i naaakkk sangat kicap......
Pang!!

p/s Keesokan harinya, LD bercerita yg kawan dia pun cakap moknya asyik terbayang2 scene kicap tu..hihihi..nampak gayanya istilah 'kicap' itu boleh diterima dan diguna pakai oleh kanak2 darjah 2..

I told MG...matilah anak kita dalam 15 tahun lagi mesti trauma bila tetiba dia dah faham double meaning mok pok nya..cam i dedulu je... 

'Homework'

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera...

I have totally lost the will to blog. Kalau dulu2 tuh, cerita ada dlm kepala but sometimes too busy to write..but these couple of months, kepala blank. I'm slowly starting to create stories in my head, so i may be back. Before boleh celoteh macam biasa, ada 'homework' yg kena i buat.

A reader, HM wrote an email to me regarding her cat..very much part of the family and loved. I baca email tu banyak kali dik and setiap kali, tetap rasa sebak. Non animal/cat loving person will not understand our love and attachment to our furry companions. Personally to me, they are more than just cats..they are my kids. Decision in taking them on dulu bukannya sebab i kesepian and depa adalah accessory...I have always had cats my entire life, so having one or many just came naturally. Any decision i made besar atau kecik mesti i keep them in mind. Nak pindah rumah area mana yg selamat utk depa, buat renovation muat tak grill utk depa keluar masuk, mana nak tempatkan their litter boxes termasuklah my decision on furthering my studies locally (and how i had to suffer for this)...but at the end of the day, nothing else matters because i manage to keep them safe and happy, hopefully.

Now they are getting into their twilight years..Monty is 10 and Oogy (formerly known as Ugi..dia kata nak glamer sikit) is 8..never a day gone by that i tak terfikir yg one day, soon maybe, they will leave me...(dah sebak dah ni). Sebanyak mana i prepare myself for it, i know i will still cry buckets and rasa kosong for sometime to come....macam masa Melly PrincessBoyot pergi dulu. Seperit mana i menjaganya dulu, sebanyak mana duit yg keluar, i did it with redha because she was Melly, she was more than just a pet. Kalau ada penawarnya, ke hujung dunia i akan cari. But alas, akhirnya i terpaksa terima hakikat yg i had to let her go because it was too painful for her. Masa dia tengah sakit, sedaya upaya i cuba buat dia selesa. But ada sedikit kekesalan....in my quest to make her better, i paksa dia makan ubat yg i tahu pahit ya amat. Walaupun dia dah lemah, she fought like crazy, mouth frothing and dragged herself to one corner, bathed in her saliva. I gave up that night. I was angry..i thought why wasn't she cooperating when all i wanted was to make her better. Esok paginya i found her where i had left her the night before. She was too weak to even get back into her box. I menyesal sangat2 because i could have made her comfortable..instead i terlalu melayan perasan i.

But after i accepted the fact that she was dying, it was some sort of a relief. Macam, ok, from them onwards, lets just keep her comfortable and let her know we, her family was around her and that we all loved her very, very much.

OK, i got to stop now...nanti laki i ingat apahal menaip sambil teghoyak* at the same time. To HM, i kagum dgn your (+ your family) dedication towards looking after your ailing furry sibling. I hope this reply hasn't come too late... At the end of the day, itu saja yg kita boleh bagi in return but i think he knows he is very much loved and that's all that matters to him.

*teghoyak = menangis meroyan