Memories are made of..?

I presented the first draft of my proposal this afternoon to my 2 supervisors. Damn...the research is gaining more breadth as time goes by....while they were discussing and getting overexcited, i just wanted to say, hey stop talking...these supervisors kan...they get OTT with their ideas, syok sangat ada khadam nak merealisasikan their ideas and all the time in my mind, i dengar bunyi ker-chinggg! You know why? It's not easy to recruit subjects especially dlm bab2 nak bagi darah ni so, i ada strategi utk 'merewardkan' sesiapa yg sukarela tu...obviously dari poket i lah kan...so the bigger the research, the more subjects are required, so bye bye kaylcc, bye bye internet shopping for a long time....Talk about just a few months ago me moaning, ooooo..life isn't challenging anymore...hah! ambik kau! Now to think of it, would be much easier if i had opted to try losing weight ke, train for marathon ke...

Last time i balik kampung, my sis n family were there also. We arrived a few hours before bukak puasa and there she was with her daughters making kuih raya. I envy her energy and enthusiasm...most of all, i am envious that long after she's gone, her daughters will have memories of them making kuih raya with their mama just like what we had with our mak.

If my children were able to give their opinions now, should i be gone tomorrow, they'd probably think long and hard....what kind of memories would they have of me? My head is forever buried in something....kalau tak fictional reading material, it'll be work stuff and obviously, lately scientific articles..they'd probably say, mummy selalu terbongkang atas katil dikelilingi buku and kertas. Bila depan tv, laptop atas riba, selalu kata don't touch, ni 'homework' mummy (walaupun some of the times melayari non-academic sites...hehe). Mummy's also a spoil sport...she'd wrestle us in bed pasal nak gosokkan gigi and also dictate daddy what can/not be bought for us to eat (no sweets, Chocs OK, vitagen less sugar version only etc.)She hardly combs our hair (because sorang botak and sorang maid sikatkan) but she does it for melly...of course she talks to the cats...carries Monty into the toilet with her while she's doing you know what. (Now they've 'mentioned' it, mummy diaorg eccentric gila!)

OKlah, nak pi tido...