I'm on leave today. For the past 3 days, i have lost my voice. The last 2, totally. I don't have any sore throat..i lost my voice due to constant coughing. I had no ache in my throat to remind me not to speak so whenever i wanted to no sound came out and i am completely frustrated and flustered. I have to resort to whispering and most of the times sign language, and obscene ones sometimes at my friends if they are too slow to undertand what i was trying to say. At other times i carry with me some pieces of paper and pen..On Monday night, i surrendered and asked MG to take me to the dr's for the wonder drug prednisolone. I underestimated my asthma, when it was my turn to see the dr an hour later, i could hardly speak and was immediately put on the nebuliser. Obviously the good dr reprimanded me for waiting for my turn patiently when i should have just notified his assisstant pronto to bé 'gassed'. Tapi kita ni tak biasalah nak potong2 queue ni...i forgot to inform the dr that my phlegm has turned green since i had no fever..so the next day, apalagi self prescribed sendirilah antibiotics kat tempat kerja. (betul ke ni DBI oi?) Since tak boleh bercakap ni, it seems pointless le nak dtg kerja kan? Tak boleh nak mengajar, clients tak boleh jumpa...Itulah sebabnya why i'm at home today...selain dpd nak berfoya2 cari benda yg kurang for my daughters' aqiqah (PIL yg sponsor, buat kat rumah diaorg). Not to mention ada perjumpaan desperate hoswipes petang nanti..oops!
Speaking of cerita sensasi yg telah diulas pun oleh gossip columnist jemputan kita, what more to say about it kan? Like always there are two sides to every story. The guy might say my wife doesn't understand me, bila balik asyik nak bergaduh je, so i pun bosan and lebih baik tak balik langsung ke rumah (with 3 kids i sure hope the wife has good family support or a ferrari of a maid to mind those kids. I'd be lost if MG doesn't help me with the kids, kalaupun setakat nak mengagah si Baby X while i sikat rambut Melly). But oops too bad, one of those nights yg i opt to tidur (kut la) kat office, i tak sedar yg one of my employees (yg muda genit bergetah and at that age i'm sure quite impressionable esp. si Jantan itu kacak and successful pak polisi on tv lak tu) masih belum balik lagi. And nesti ada org yg sakit hati and nak aniaya kitaorg maka kitaorg pun tertangkaplah walaupun dalam keadaan (masih) kering....talk about sheer bad luck. So wife, please forgive me, i tinggalkan rumah, bukannya apa..i just need sometime on my own to think (and check out other óptions').
Obviously the woman akan sakit hati...ooo...kata takde apa2 tup tup kena tangkap. Dah tu boleh suruh aku consider the b*&^% punya feelings pulak bila nak buat decision. Hah! Ambik ko, aku saja bagi reporter ikut aku biar seantero Malaya (dan Twickenham) tahu what a lying piece of s%&* you are. (Can you imagine tengah mengandung laki tak balik rumah, kita dengar gossip2 liar ....you know yg lebih teruk daripada memberi pompuan lain tumpang keta while your heavily pregnant wife had to drive 80+km to work and back (ooops..sorry ni dah masuk ke kisah rumahtangga lain)..then lepas bersalin where your hormones yg tengah dlm pregnancy at the peak and pas tu jatuh berdebuk laki still tak balik rumah...mana tak mengoyan makcik tu!
For all that is worth, i'm sure at one point in time those two were so much in love like many other couples who got married. The first 6 months may be bliss, 2 tahun masih cintan2 lagi, then masuk kesekian tahun, husband and wife may talk less and less until they become like two strangers/acquaintances living under the same roof. For a while when the first kid arrived, the couple may find/rekindle a common bond that they may share..pas tu bila anak masuk dua, tiga, benda2 yg di share tu jadi mundane, same old same old. Yg lelaki may try to find hiburan kat dlm/luar rumah...from things as innocent as golf to psp. Tapi ada pulak yg suka nak meluahkan gundah gulana dlm rumahtangga kat internet chatting or chatting kat officemates yg sudi mendengar (biasanya pompuan2 yg suka nak mendengar ni)....Pas tu macam terperasan kononnya officemate tu is a good listener with many other attributes yg bini aku takdelah! Among others, i'm sure the 'good listener' is not clad in baju kelawar, bau belacan or muntah budak. First the mind will start to stray, pas tu lama2 tak tau apalagi yg akan stray..
I'm no expert to comment apatah lagi nak bagi nasihat dalam hal2 rumahtangga ni...kena tanya org yg dah lama kawin and masih stay married for whatever reason. It could be as simple as í'm so used to his snores at night that if he was not around the world would seem so quiet'..mana le tau, kan?
Recently, one of the top guy in my field ditched his wife (pasal taknak bermadu kot) for a younger woman yg buat apprenticeship kat tempat dia. That woman is half his age and mengikut sumber2 terdekat yg boleh dipercayai, the other woman is a plain jane, takde gaya2 perampok suami org or perosak rumahtangga..and we would like to know why kan? After being married for 25years + baru tu ke the guy realised that ada sesuatu yg tak kena dalam hidup dia? For him to leave his wife and strain his relationship with his children (i'm sure)..ataupun he has lost something important to him along the way and he wanted to get it all back for e.g. konket 3-4 kali seminggu which maybe the ex-wife tak kosser dah? Only him knows the answer to that..
Recently also, a female friend of mine commented that we like to moan about our husbands....kalau dengar cerita macam takde satu pun yg positive. It made me think...the only two friends of mine yg selalu puji melangit laki diaorg are widows, both husbands died young at the age of 35. I guess that dah menjadi lumrah manusia, we won't appreciate something/someone until org tu dah takde depan mata kita. How true..

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